ten hours and fifteen minutes it was now her that Edward Cullen in my face said he did not love me. His answer to my question came quickly, without hesitation and with such certainty that it corresponded in any case the truth. I lay in my bed, it was in the middle of the night and felt so alone, as never before in my life. He had been shockingly honest, me included at nothing and it broke my heart. But it was good! Maybe I could finally finish, really close and make them forget unsuccessful attempts I made in this regard so far had started.
How I survived the rest of the evening, I do not know. Edward stayed only briefly, saying no word to me and snapped after a loud, sharp call the remaining files and disappeared. As he walked through the door, it felt like I was going to die one by one. He took every part of me that I'm made of. My feelings, my desires, my love, leaving an empty shell that could only fill my son back to life. I had never been so glad to have him with me. He was my support and my comfort. His presence kept me from bursting into tears and I even more ridiculous than I already did.
Edward was determined incredibly embarrassed that I gave him a love letter, because something was not on his plan. He would have appreciated it if I had said I was crazy about him, which was also quite the case, but love was not planned by him, either now or in the future. Sadly I was thinking about this Tanya, which influenced him so much that no one got a chance. For him, it would always remain an ideal that could never be achieved by other women. A young love that blossomed as fresh as a rose, only to end so cruel was something special. He would always bitter sweet memory prefer to Tanya, rather than emotionally again engage in a real, live woman. I did not know how long ago was it, but there had been some time have elapsed since her death. After all this time, he mourned her ever afterwards still loved her just as passionately as ever. His obsession for me was just a whim that would disappear, too, but Tanya would remain forever a place in his heart. She remained in his memory would forever young, fresh and innocent, while age myself, and every other woman and wither. How in the world should be able to keep up with such an ideal? It was impossible!
Sleepless
I tossed back and forth and angry voices whispering to me how naive and stupid I was to believe he would actually feel more than just a passion for me. Sex was the reason why he got me so penetrating behind. Sex was his drive. Sex was the only thing he was willing to give even more. But I was not enough. I wanted love, he wanted my body. I wanted someone to lean on, he someone he could then forget. I was ready to give myself to him body and soul, but he was able to do that. Silent tears rolled down my cheeks, seeped into my pillow, because I noticed my face pressed into it, so Danny could not hear me.
I cried until the morning dawned, and finally an exhausted sleep. After only two hours, this sleep was interrupted by the ringing of my alarm clock and I was on such whacked, dragged me into the bathroom and was startled by my reflection. Puffy eyes towards me, looked out of a dead white face that looked waxen and stiff as a doll. Disgusted by my own sight, I climbed into the shower and let the hot water while running down my skin, stood up to fear, I would grow Schwimmhäutchen between the fingers and toes. But after a few minutes ago was the water heater no hot water at all, felt a cold shiver down my back and I froze pathetic. Shivering, I left the shower, dried myself off and quickly tied my towel like a turban around his head.
I made breakfast for Danny, who was still sleeping soundly. Today I had to take the late shift so I could spend even a good four hours with my son before I went back to the place of my defeat. Carefully, I woke Danny, as I blew him tenderly in his ear and he banged his hand after the alleged intruder. Finally, he opened his eyes but when he realized that the teasing would not stop. With a cry he threw my arms around his neck and pulled me with surprising force down on the Bed.
"I want to cuddle with you, Mummy!" He called friendly and I went to him.
Lovingly I pressed him to me, enjoyed it, to hear the baby's heart beat and tenderly stroked his hair. He told me again in peace and quiet of his experiences in the camp, which actually made me laugh. After half an hour his stomach growled and I felt surprisingly, a slight feeling of hunger. Danny was balm for my wounded soul and guided me from my grief. At least I had my son. His love was taken away from me no one and he gave me full. Time passed very quickly and I took him to his buddy Sam, where he would spend the day. Bibi had its semi-annual appointment with the cardiologist, and therefore no time, but it would receive from Sam's mother when the brought him back.
The dinner was quite full and I was searching for Rosalie, today morning was already here. I found her in the living room where she lit a cigarette to my surprise. Since when she smoked again? She was been so proud to finally be rid of this vice. Thoughtfully, she drew on her cigarette, inhaled deeply and pushed the smoke with the next breath again. I approached my friend and colleague. Since the disastrous evening in the club we had not spoken and they looked just unhappy as I felt. She heard me coming closer, and pressed the cigarette after a last train out in the ashtray, who stood there usually just there for decoration and had previously never used.
"Hello Bella," she said. Even her voice sounded and not nearly as cheerful and enthusiastic as usual depth of grief was reflected in her eyes again and I sat down beside her, took her hand and encouraged her with just one look to tell me everything. She sighed heavily and began to speak.
"You were right with your guess, I would have agreed with Emmett. He called me very quickly, after you have given him my number and we are together expected, "she told bent," Bella, he lives in a completely different world. Even the napkins on the table looked more expensive than the dress I wore. You should have seen how the waiter stared at me as if I were a professional. "
" That's not the reason why you are so sad. Or? You knew it before, that he lives in a different environment than you and me. "
She smiled briefly.
"know already, but it's different when it gets so out before our eyes. Known by it came to the table and he introduced me. It was one of these Yuppiepärchen. He lawyer, doctor. Can you imagine how embarrassed I was when they asked me what I do. For the first time I've wished that I had brought in school longer and would have done something with my life instead of running as a waitress through the world history. "
" Rose, that's no shame in thinking something like not. I am also "just" a waitress. "
" You became pregnant at eighteen and had no choice. Determined what would become of you, because you're smart, what have you on the box while I'm just blond and pretty. I do not fit into such a Man like Emmett. The trouble is that he really awful like. I broke the early morning and told him that we should no longer see each other again. In the club he called me and I was so upset when he said he would come and get me now. I wanted to be left in peace because with us it would work ever, we are too different, and he deserves a woman with whom he need not feel embarrassed. "
" Edward told, he had appeared "
re smiling Rose, but now it seemed transfigured clear.
"Yes came, he pulled out and has me," she said thoughtfully, "Outside he kissed me passionately and told me I should not think so much. He would be proud to have found itself a beautiful woman who would be so nice. "
She paused a moment and turned bright red. Rose was red! Normally she was very callous and nothing was too upset. You really had to be fired in Emmett when she reacted Sun
"He has just overwhelmed me," she gushed with eyes closed now, "He is so strong, Bella. His kisses made me completely from the concept and I am with him in his apartment. It was the best night of my life. It was not just the sex, even if that was overwhelming, but the way he kept me after that. For the first time in my life, I felt safe and protected in a man. I'm up in the morning to make myself in front of him ready because I did not think he sees me when I'm so disheveled and bleary-eyed. He slept, he looked like a big teddy bear. In the living room, the phone rang and someone said on the answering machine. It was his mother! She asked him to take care of an escort for the charity ball at the Congress Centre. Since I was clear again, that it could not work with us. I will wait tables there, Bella! Should I use him as his companion. It everything is so hopeless. I've gone and had left him only a letter, as I've told him everything. Since then I have heard nothing more. "
I took her in his arms and tried to comfort her. Apparently we all had bad luck in love. We should do us, and establish the club of broken hearts, I thought sarcastically.
"I must again, Bella. The work does not by itself, "she said firmly," Listen, we have to throw before a farewell party for Lou, before leaving Seattle for good. We already collect and we wanted to ask you to care for a matching gift. You stood him the next great thing and can determine out looking for him. "
" I care about. He has always wanted a new motorcycle equipment, because his old one is closed already so. Depending on how much comes together, we might as well tax a part of this, perhaps in the form of a voucher. There is a Harley shop he ever visited there, I'll look around again. " http://www.downtownhd.com/
Rose nodded enthusiastically and left the lounge to tell the others know. I decided to still enjoy a cup of coffee to finally make a responsive person out of me. While I drank it in small sips, I kept hearing the same noise.
drip drip ... .. ... .. ... .. drip drip ....
The water tap in the tiny kitchen was either defective, or you had to once again, tighten down the screw. Annoyed, I got up and grabbed me from the makeshift tool box a pair of pliers and went under the sink to tighten the screw. That turned out to be not so simple because the stubborn thing was not moving from the spot.
"Now get moving at last, you stupid thing," groaned, I do the utmost effort and go with almost all my weight on the forceps to the stupid part to move.
"Do you think they will respond to you when you scold loud enough," asked an amused voice, I immediately drove up the pulse.
I pulled his head out too hectic and pushed me hard on the temple.
"Damn," I swore angry and embarrassed at the same time, because I constantly in his presence was no coordination. It almost seemed as if the clumsiness awaken with him back to life after I took so many years in order to get it somewhat under control.
"Have you hurt yourself?" He asked.
I held his head while I somewhat sheepishly in front of him sat on the floor and then me but acts together.
"No, it's been. I used to be something happening all the time. From the cured, "said I only.
"You are a bit clumsy, could that be?" He asked, grinning.
I did not deign to reply, but put away the gun. Then I looked at him carefully, and felt again that familiar spot in my heart at the sight. He was truly the most wonderful man I ever saw, no one was comparable to him. But it was not only its visual appearance but also that the aura of cold, lack of conscience and sex, it so attractive made. Now that I confessed my love for him, I felt it only more intense and I was almost glad that he promised to let me in sexual terms alone. I could not resist him, probably more if he actually once again hell bent to get me into bed.
Tall, slim and sexy in his suit he stood in the doorway, white as his shirt was paired with a dark green silk tie, which again reflected the color of his eyes. He seemed very moderate business and I appreciated it as a sign that he had no intention of spending the day in the diner. Why should they? He certainly had more important business Matters requiring its attention. The shift from the decadent Playboy, which he represented in private life, the ice-cold businessman, took place as naturally as the change between day and night. With springy steps, he entered the room.
"Let's go to the office," he said bluntly, "I do not have much time and we need to discuss."
He did not wait on me, but made immediately on the way to Lou's former office . I followed him and then looked at him expectantly.
"Once we have clarified our personal situation, it's about the business part," he began, "You are amazingly well informed about the procedures here and I have decided to use up as manager. I have neither the time nor the desire to far to find someone who takes the lead of this store. You have brains and the respect of employees, that much is clear, the A and O. Benton, my assistant will be available to you if you have questions. From it you can learn a lot, he has already confessed to my father to the side and then me. I also want you to dismiss the temporary workers and set for two full-time employees. Well, what you have to say? "He concluded hypothermic.
I could stare at him, I saw his lips moving and heard what was said, but I had to digest. I should take over the management? I dared me to? Yes! Yes, I did. It would be a great opportunity for me financially a little bit to get to his feet and turning around every penny to have. Even if the offer came from Edward and he stresses me with his aloof nature would kill, I had to take advantage of this opportunity. I had responsibility for a child and was not allowed to be guided solely by my hurt feelings.
"If you think that I am able to do so, I would like to try it. But is it really necessary to the temporary dismissed? "I said slowly and looked at him with wide eyes. He returned my gaze, his expression was hard and pitiless.
"It is now time. Some come to go another. You have to think economically. These temporary workers do not bring much. In other areas it may well make sense to operate with temporary workers, since it is more flexible in the planning, but as a dinner lives of the people who work in it. The regulars come for the operations again, not because the food as burgers you get at every corner. The more permanent staff you have, the more you will get repeat customers. Only with the passing trade, you can not hold the dinner. There are always People who stay on the track, but you may not lead you by your caring nature can be. Here you have to take tough decisions. "
" You're probably right, but simply that's still not, "I said, disheartened.
His look was a bit softer and he ran his hand through his hair.
"I'm going to go away for some time for business, Bella. It is best for you, because I can guarantee you do not keep me away from you, if I'm always near you. We need distance and I'll find something I can distract me. That you should do, "he said in a husky voice, "When I'm back, it will not be long before the wedding with Jessica and then you are me up again."
Terrified, hurt and sad I looked into his green eyes and took not what he told me straight said. I did not know that the wedding with Jessica was so soon before and was petrified. He suddenly stood before me and put my hand to her cheek, she clasped firmly and ran his thumb along my mouth.
"This is a farewell, Bella," he whispered, "If I come back, everything will be different."
A tear caught in my eyelashes, won the battle against the stubborn Hairs and rolled slowly down my cheek.
"Edward ...." I whispered sadly.
He smiled a little wistfully.
"Before I go, only this one ....," He said softly.
Uncomprehending I looked up at him and saw his mouth towards me. I closed my eyes, eagerly awaited his kiss that robbed me equal to the senses. His lips moved sensually, soft and hot on my, another tear broke up and mingled with our kiss. Our mouths opened almost simultaneously and are the world remained, while the taste of the other one last time cost, impressing upon us the softness of the lips and inhaled the scent of the other. Time and again we pressed the tongue in the mouth of the other not, passionate, but gentle and sweet. Inside I died, because the end was approaching and I clung tightly to him, his hands buried in his hair and wished me to be able to ever feel his kiss. Finally, he broke away from me, I looked again strongly in his eyes and stroked the tears from her face.
"Farewell, dear!"
He was gone before I could react. Long I stood motionless on the spot before I took the phone and a display at the local newspaper turned to look for full-time employees. He had made his decision and I had to live with it.
It turned out to be extremely difficult to find the right staff. For a week the candidates were already in and out and no one even remotely equivalent to the requirements that were relevant in such a profession. It seemed as though all the idiots had put up Seattle for me to take your last nerve. Of body piercings, body tattoos and insufficient knowledge of languages was all represented, and I began to realize that it was not easy to find decent staff.
There was a knock at the door the office and I asked the person inside. Still it was strange to me that this office now should be mine. Lou was very excited about my position, when we talked at his farewell ceremony and wished them luck.
Alice went in to my surprise. Since they brought back my purse, I saw them no more, because I inserted a break in the club to keep me fully devote my new job. Jasper was not thrilled, but understood my motives. Alice I reached either by telephone or otherwise, have reassured me a short text message in which she wrote me, with her everything would be fine, they just need a little time.
"Alice," I cried delighted, "how nice to finally up again."
you returned my hug and sat down.
"Sorry that I was not as long as reported, but it was not a good time for me."
"How is it now gone on to Jasper? He let out absolutely nothing, as I was with him and asked him to take a break, "I asked sympathetically. It was after Rose and me, the third member, who was suffering from heartache.
"It's terrible," she replied, "He talks about no longer with me and lets me do all that through a third party. It is as if I were invisible and I can not stand it any longer. I'll quit, Bells, once I have something new. I would like to go even once to his cold to not have to endure longer, but I have to pay rent and yes even something to eat. "
matured in me an immediate decision.
"You need look no further. I need for dinner one full-time, or more precisely two and you'd be perfect for this. You are friendly, competent, experienced in the service area and you are reliable. What better could happen to me not at all. If you want you can start tomorrow, you need only drop off your Jasper termination. "
"Wow, Bells, so I would have never expected," she said enthusiastically, and seemed like a lot happier, "Maybe I'll even manage to beat him out of my head if I do not see him, even determines. "I wanted her to take
this hope not, I succumbed to this fallacy even, but the passage of time, after all, been two weeks, the greater became my longing for Edward. I just could not get him out of my head and I had sold my soul, at least once to hear his voice. But he did not at all with me, had the contact stopped completely, leaving me only about this Mr. Benton, or send e-mail messages. These were purely commercial in nature and did not give any personal words.
"Then everything is clear!" I was happy, "Rose will freak out when she hears that you begin here." Grinned
Alice over her face, as it knocked at the door and a woman entered that was difficult to estimate the age. Alice and I were almost the eyes out when we saw them. http://www.pravmir.com/uploads/toula_larger.jpeg
"Hello! My name is Cynthia Simmons, "she said shyly.
Oh God, she whispered horrible!
"What can I do for you?" I asked my friendly and misgives, while Alice, from sheer amazement about such a terrible outfit, his mouth no longer zubekam.
"I would like to apply for the vacant post with you," she said softly, and hardly dared to look at me. I was so frightening? I felt sorry and I asked her to sit down to at least give her a chance.
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