I slowly sat up again and knocked the dust off my dress. I wanted to go home!
presence of mind took a little while ago with my handbag, which now lay at my feet on the ground. The passionate kiss with Edward it was me just slipped from his hands.
Edward ... ..
Now I already called him in thought by their first names. He went more and more under the skin and my already weak resistance crumbled concern. Earlier, I could not bring myself to pronounce his name, the Situation was just too intimate. It would have been a surrender and that is what I wanted to avoid at all costs.
me even before I made nothing. I definitely had feelings for this bastard!
It was not love, do it acted simply impossible, but it took my body for cooking, as yet none before it. If I was not paying attention now, I would very soon end up in his arms and his bed, just as he predicted it to me. And then to separate sex and love, I would be impossible. In the bottom of my heart I was a romanticist and would start the futile attempt to change it. But such a project would be Beginning to fail.
I carefully opened the door, peered through the narrow gap and stepped out a sigh of relief when the coast was clear.
Without any remorse, I walked towards the exit, let me hand over my jacket and went to the home. It was of course extremely rude to disappear without a word, but I did not have the nerve, Mom and George to face again.
Bibi had already come up with a very good explanation. What the hell she led only to my key as a guy on the eye?
Outside I looked around a bit uncomfortable. It was completely dark, even the street lamps spread only insufficient light, and I regretted it now, at this time to stand here all alone.
The restaurant was one of the finest in all of Seattle, but it was not particularly safe area. The owner lived here for years and became the culinary delights of its cuisine such a good reputation in Seattle, that people even ventured to this part of town to eat here.
However, it was a good idea, not as a woman, but stop here, especially if it was really dark. On the way here it was almost light and therefore harmless, but now, saw the matter differently.
turn around I wanted to go back, at least I was not alone in the world and had responsibility for Danny. So I would bear the company of mother and son for a while, and then later accompanied home safely to be. Mom would surely deter all criminals in Seattle.
Before I even one step forward came glowed in the dark for a cigarette. Someone was standing there in the dark, smoking and watching me.
Afraid I crossed his arms over his chest as the figure stepped into the faint light, only to breathe easier half, half angry.
"What are you doing here?" I asked, somewhat irritated. Cullen smiled
sardonic.
"smoking, you see that!" He replied, holding up the Glimmstengel.
It was strange to face him again, after we had before fought less than ten minutes. A slight smile crept to my lips. Somehow seemed to belong to both of us. First fight, then kiss, then fight again .... War can not get back kisses to the series?
"Why are you smiling?" He asked me.
He was very quiet, threw the cigarette on the floor and kicked them out with the heel of his shoes.
"Nothing really special," I whispered, "I just thought about how strange and unreal it all seems. First George and his mother, then you ... ".
I finished the sentence and looked at his face relaxed. If he was like now, so calm and without arrogance, then his face was almost unnaturally beautiful, chiseled.
"Come," he said softly, "I accompany you home. It is too dangerous for you here to walk the streets alone. You do not even come up to the next block without being assaulted. "
substantiated police sirens in the background and even his words without thinking about what I was doing, tripped I beside him on my high heels.
Again and again I glanced over at him as we silently side by side herliefen. The hands buried deep in his pockets, he strolled leisurely in front of him while I was struggling to keep up with my little feet step. I am also took the shoes of almost.
surprised that he was so ... nice ... I gathered up my courage and asked a question that burned me quite some time under the nails.
"Why are you following me?" He laughed, amused
honest.
"Bella, if I give you the really must explain, then you have a serious problem. "
He stopped and took me by the shoulders.
"It's that simple." He whispered, "I want you. I want you more than any woman before you. The fact that you are so reluctant makes you even more attractive, because something happened to me never before. Normally, my women are formally in the arms and then are hardly accessible. "
hypnotized As I stared at him. A hand moved away from my shoulder and ran me almost tenderly a strand of hair from her face. He had never been so gentle, so tender ....
His charisma was incredible, and he literally pulled me into its spell. Trembling, I lifted my gaze to him and prayed for strength.
He very well could feel my uncertainty.
"You need have no fear, little Isabella. For now I leave you alone. "
He left me and sat down again on the move. All too soon we were standing in front of my apartment block and I felt like a girl on their first date.
My heart pounded excitedly in my chest when I wanted to say goodbye. The atmosphere between us was achieved remarkable and made me create. It was already hard enough to resist him if he behaved like a creep, but he was charming and nice, it was almost impossible.
excited I swallowed down the lump in my throat and I moistened my dry lips with his tongue. He followed this movement and involuntarily opened her mouth slightly.
God, I longed so after that, to kiss him ....
"Here you live also!" His voice broke the silence between us.
I nodded slightly, without answering him. My vote would probably be a hotter anyway croak.
He looked frowning at the old, shabby buildings.
"You should move away from here, Bella. That is no place for you. "
His Words made me see red.
"Where and how will I live, up to anything, Edward Cullen. I can now even afford anything better. They are not all born with a golden spoon in his mouth and I have to work hard for my money. So stop it, to interfere in my affairs and see that you get away. "
was angry and hurt I turn away.
His obvious contempt for circumstances of my life hit me hard. Sure, it was not the finest area, but Danny and I had created with little means a nice home where they could feel comfortable. It was determined in a different class than the sterile luxury of the super-rich.
"Hey, now is snapped again. You are truly the greatest scratch brush that I have ever met, "he said with amusement.
Now he also laughed at me.
know "what, Cullen! You can forget it! "I raged.
spurred by my aggression, I turned too quickly toward the house door and lost my balance. The inch-high heels, I floated, and before I hit the hard ground, he caught me fortunately.
bent low over me, he held me in his arms and made no Institutions to let go.
"I've just saved your pretty head," he states unnecessarily, "now I get a reward?"
He said teasingly, without any claim on the velvet voice and plunged it into hopeless confusion. Why did he suddenly acted so different? Well, he was still rude, but its behavior was different but serious at the last meeting.
My face had to be a single question mark, for he began to laugh softly.
"You're adorable when you look so confused. I would like to eat you with skin and hair, "whispered he to me and held me just close.
boiling heat covered my body and an overwhelming desire was bubbling under my seemingly cool surface.
His smile was wide, but it was a real smile, not this grin that he always exhibited.
That was exactly what made me be involuntarily and I eagerly awaited the next kiss that was not long in coming. Affectionate
lowered his lips to mine, moving soft and smooth and not crowded, but gave.
Carried away I said this caress, delighted with the feelings he aroused in me. Automatically opened I slid my mouth and tongue timid and shy in his. It was the first time I took the initiative and I was not very proficient in these things, I was terrified of being embarrassed.
I was worried unnecessarily. His groan was proof enough that I did my job well. Become more courageous, I began to explore his mouth.
His hand slid into my neck and stared at my head, I could hardly move. I did not need to. It gave me completely that I could get him with my tongue to tremble. Small and soft they danced around his, tasted its flavor, not even by affecting the cigarette was.
My arms wrapped around his neck and he lifted me lightly in the air, leaving my legs dangling in the air. I was not in danger of falling to hard as he pressed me to his lean, strong body.
silently we kissed. Words would only destroy this moment. I knew that I could not rate it. His tenderness was just a whim, a chance to get closer to me.
He would tell me not suddenly his undying love and spend the rest of his days trying to make me happy. He was not the type.
I reluctantly broke my mouth from his and the same it, I felt solid ground under me.
"Good night," I whispered softly, and turned me to go.
"Bella," he shouted after me, "We see us."
I smiled and turned around.
"That's what I am afraid." I said with a grin, "I tell you what, Cullen. That has to mean just anything. I will not sleep with you. "
" Are you there really so sure? "He grinned suggestively.
But of course that he thought so!
"I admit that you are very talented with your hands and lips. But I'll buy your friendly tour does not. You come with your usual tactic with me anymore and since the required swing around on you suddenly gentle lover. But since you have cut up, pal. I've got up. "He grinned
caught.
"I guess I have to file a bit on my acting skills. You got me so see through pretty quickly. But it was worth it anyway, "he said lightly," because I realize now that you begin to develop feelings for me. That makes it much easier for me. "
Shocked, I gulped down my horror. My words were actually more intended as a provocation. I never thought that he was really as ruthless and my feelings vorheuchelte, to get me into bed. To make matters worse, was also the fact that he knew very well that he left me no means cold.
He registered my growing fascination for him and used this fact shamelessly.
was really all just played? Sometimes, as in his eyes was what made him seem not so cold and calculating.
Anyway, it was not important! I prayed to all gods that I aufbrächte the strength to resist him permanently.
some point he would have had enough to chase me and I built it. A new victim would bring into view and capture his attention. A woman who was more to this Adonis and not so graced. Now, it might still be attractive and interesting to recreate it, but that would only get bored at some point, like everything else in his life.
He was restless and unstable, I knew without him really knowing. This volatility meant my life, I had to hold out just a little.
But as long as you will bother him a bit, I whispered to my inner voice alluring. Mad at myself, I straightened my shoulders.
"Think what you want. I have to get up early tomorrow and 'll go now. Good night, "I snapped offended.
I quickly disappeared into the house without waiting for an answer. Inside, I took off my shoes and ran nimbly up the steps.
I have a bill with Bibi had open. This Blind Date was the biggest letdown of my life and she had to do with this. How could I only as a flat bulb like George rush to the neck?
Bibi sat as the personification of innocence on the chair and beamed at me.
"You're already there," she smiled, "Was it nice?"
grudgingly I gulped down a harsh response.
"It was interesting I have to say! "
" Yes, right. George is still great? "Said curiously questioning. Something was wrong here
! Bibi was a person and patents would normally wash cloth such as George eats for breakfast. Why they sent me on a date with him, I was still a mystery. I decided their consciences in order to lure them from the reserve.
"So really, it was actually fantastic," enthused I sneaky and Bibi lost her composure.
"Seriously?"
Yes, I grossly exaggerated, "he is a dream of a man as you voraussagtest. So caring and attractive. I would prefer him to marry away from the spot. And he also brought along his Mom, can you imagine? Such a nice woman. They would be the perfect grandmother to Danny. "
Bibi gulped noticeably and watched me carefully.
"You know, you were quite alone for long," she began, "Maybe you should still meet up with other men before you put up so tight."
"Oh, Fiddlesticks! Why look for a long time? He will carry me on hands, "I lied shamelessly and deliciously amused me inside, terrified of her expression.
"Bella," she cried, "Please come to their senses. That can not be serious! The guy is terrible. "
The fists on my hips, I stood like a goddess of vengeance against her.
"You can say aloud, Bibi! How could you? I thought you were my friend. "
guiltily looked at me.
"Sorry, I have built really crap. I wanted to share with you this evening with only the eyes. "Irritated, I pulled
eyebrows.
"In terms of what?"
"Edward Cullen! I have long thought about it and decided that it is not so bad. Maybe not as a permanent partner, but it's so much life in you, since you know him and he'll do well on his way. "
How good he did me, he showed me around the public under the table of the most sought-after restaurants in Seattle .
"His appearance tonight was surely no coincidence?" I asked resignedly.
Bibi's fragile-looking figure, was at their place of ever smaller and their bad conscience I literally jumped into his face.
"I gave him a message it sent to his office. You should be able to compare and I'm just the ugliest Guy asked, I knew. "
" Oh Bibi, "I said plaintively," You had no right to do something. I also do not understand you! Just a few days, you can tell how dangerous he is! Then you advise me to go out of his way and now you serve him my head on a silver platter. I just do not understand you. "
" Darling, you give me one day you will be thankful. Of course you have my actions seem illogical, but believe me, I only want your best. I would never do something that could harm you. "
She got up and sat down beside me on the sofa. Lovingly she took my Hand in hers and patted it gently.
"My poor girl," she said motherly, "you're determined confused and do not know what you're supposed to think. For over five years, I will see you have on your life and you stand by me now as close as my beloved children. It hurt just to see how you are wasting your life. Sure, you have Danny, but there is so much more. "
Bibi were tears in her eyes and her eyes wandered to the past.
"You know," she began in a trembling voice, "after the death of my husband came to me as to you. I had to fight so hard for my children every day to bring some food on the table. Every minute I was living only for her and I did it gladly. The work was hard and tiring, but I knew what I was plagued Sun Then I met Thomas. "
When this name came from her lips, stole a painful, tender smile on her face, which seemed like years younger.
"He was the son of my employer in the board mill with his father and made a tour when we first met. From the first second, there was something between us. But it took a while until we got closer. His reputation in relation to women, was just terrible and I did not want me on that list . Classified For weeks he gave me the yard and eventually I relented. It was a revelation, Bella, "she gushed.
Bibi squeezed my hand and I listened to the fascinating love story of my older girlfriend.
"I loved my husband very much and have long mourned him, but Thomas touched me in a way, as John never made it. Almost half a year, we were secretly a couple, when his father came to see me. He made it perfectly clear that I would have no future on the side of his son. Thus a widow is not darhergelaufene the role he hoped for him. "She stopped short and
struggled for form. She found it very difficult to get the next words on the lips.
"He offered me a lot of money so I left with my children, Thomas and the city behind me. Of course I refused, but I doubt more and more came to our relationship. He was rich, handsome and a respected citizen. I, however, was a nobody, a simple worker and, moreover, the mother of two children. The gap between us grew, the more frequent quarrels. One day he asked me an ultimatum. Either I would marry him or he would end the relationship. "
The memories were Bibi tremble and I had tears in his eyes. It was unbearable for me to see how much they suffered.
"I have rejected his request because I had too much fear of disappointment. He kept his word and parted from me. His father sent him for half a year to France, where he met his future wife. Now I know what a big mistake I made and I regret deeply that they have not shown more courage. Do not make the same mistakes as me and trust you something. The pain of rejection is not as bad as the loneliness. I lost my love by my own fault, but I will not allow the same thing happens to you, "she protested passionately.
"I'm so terribly sorry for you! "
" Grieve not because of an old woman. I just wanted you to understand why I acted that way. "
She stood up slowly and suddenly looked very frail.
"I go to sleep now, my child! Think about my simple words. "
She walked out the door as she stirred me and thoughtfully left behind.
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