The alarm clock rang
like every morning at six clock. Tired, I reached out and brought the thing with a loud bang targeted to silence. Immediately stopped this deafening noise and I was relieved to sink back again into the cushions. The eyes still closed set, like every morning I vowed that this stupid part would still end up in the dustbin. Of course this would not happen, but just the thought was wonderful. I had to get up as often absolutely no desire, as I was by nature an outspoken late risers. As always, I just wanted to again turn to the side and continue to dream. But that was a luxury I I could not afford. So I had no alternative but to push my butt out of bed to get ready for another hard day close. On my bank account no later than the end of the week would rule gaping void, if I do not gratuities from dinner conceded. These amounts that went into my private purse, were indeed more variable, but I was planning this "charity" as Rose called it always loving, always be in my budget with one. Otherwise I was not otherwise financially make ends meet.
I yawned and stared hard then squinting through my eyelashes through the window. Outside it was still dark and raining. The drops evenly knocked on the window panes and I was looking in the mind after the right clothes for Danny. His raincoat was it really almost too small, but for a while it would go. His jeans still hanging on drying rack in the bathroom, decided it should be dry. Thick sweater and his strong shoes ... I knew more about it and at the same time, as the rain increased massively in strength. The soft beating swelled to a pressing pounding and I snorted, annoyed. The weather in Seattle was so corrosive! Why did it take me and Danny in only one area where the precipitation rate was so high? Shaking his head, I sat up and stretched yawning arms up over my head. I winced briefly as I heard it crackling slightly. You're getting old, Bella, I confessed to me and tried using circular movements of the shoulder muscles to relax my tense. A new mattress would certainly not have hurt, but if not a miracle from heaven and fell directly into my bed, then they had to still take a while. Reluctantly, I crawled
to the edge of the bed, threw back but had another one last longing look. sleep until the next opportunity than an hour longer than usual, it would still take quite a while. This week I really had to get out of bed early every day because one of the waitresses was suffering from flu. This meant in plain language, my free Saturday fell through. Fortunately, Lou had me classified for the morning shift, I would at least have the afternoon a bit of time for Danny, before the evening I had to continue in the nightclub. This second job was indeed damn hard, but quite lucrative. At least for my modest financial demands. Solely with the thought of how tired I would be on all day Sunday, when I first came in the early hours of the club, I was dizzy. However, Sunday was really the only day of the week on which I did not work and spend time with Danny as undisturbed could. Dear, I took it into account, to fall over from sheer weakness, but to do without a single minute with my son. But I was only human and not a machine, so I wanted from me and for some time to myself. There were few occasions when I could drop me and just had fun. I was a mother, good friend, a waitress and maid of all work, but no woman more. My love life has remained Danny's birth completely on the track, which I though was quite right. I was afraid to love me again because I did not want to be hurt again like back then. Danny's father had done a great job and my confidence in the world of men was exhausted. But that did not prevent me to dream of love and of a man who carried me on his hands.
If it did, I was happy in bed and dozing off me. Then I dreamed of an easier life, a person who shared it with me. I had no partner and I had the self-selected so because I was too cowardly to risk anything. Still, I missed off and a strong shoulder to lean on me I could. Some nights I cried myself to sleep because I was afraid. Fear of having to be alone old, like my friend Bibi. When the day was over, with its distractions and concerns, and broke the darkness, I longed for someone to tell me winning bids and caught me courage when the day shit was gone. Unfortunately, most guys were an absolute disaster and ran for miles like this, if you, the words "single mother" just heard. But they had already overcome me, but not a child came into question. So it was here that I went through life as a single and myself entirely devoted to my child - if I had not even work.
Finally I pulled myself together and laboriously swung his legs out of bed. With lumbering steps, I shuffled in my small bathroom and even managed, despite my still quite sleepy state, not to run against the door. She squeaked softly as I opened it and I entered the tiny room. The smell of laundry dried in the air was heavy and I tipped the window immediately. Then I pushed the drying rack to the side, bent me over the sink and lightly brushed my teeth and calmly. While I use the brush properly scrubbed every corner of my mouth, I looked around a little. Sometimes I found a corner in the apartment overwhelming, but with the exorbitant rents in Seattle, the chances were zero, that Danny and I were ever able to afford another house. Even this one was hard to pay. At the end of the month the money was always scarce and I had difficulty in us by bringing neat. Danny was still growing and I paid a very healthy diet as possible. But the time was now unfortunately very expensive. For me it would have done even spaghetti with ketchup, but for him I only wanted the best. Sometimes I was lucky and I grabbed the goods set down the day before. They were still edible and tasted good in general, only half. Over the years I had become a real expert when it came to get hold of high quality goods at affordable prices.
It was always a struggle, but for Danny, I took it in their stride. What was already a regular plated bank account, to the contented smile of my son? I spit out the toothpaste, rinsed my mouth and then climbed into the shower. While the water ran over my body, I thought about whether I should allow myself a few days off next month. I spent far too little time with Danny and his sad face when I had to cancel the planned Saturday with him, had cut my heavy heart. We just needed a little time for us. His childhood would never come back and I wanted as much as possible noticing. Yes. ... Holiday sounded really good. Although I would be missing the tips, but even as I occasionally got lucky, there was a small Tax refund from the tax office to. From I could divert a few dollars that would be great consequence. The rest of the sum would probably kick the bucket for the current insurance. I decided to Lou talk to me unexpectedly take a week off. As often as I stepped in at the diner as a skeleton crew, he could hardly refuse me this request.
The dinner ... it was the first job where I felt really good. The fast-food restaurant was located in the inner city and was to become my second home. There I was the cook, operation and general dogsbody. My boss was a fundamentally decent, somewhat the aging guy who paid my wages as agreed upon and nothing out of punctuality and diligence expected of me. That was for other jobs not always been so. My former employer had all tried to go after me for some time on the laundry. I never understood why because I was not exactly considered a walking sex bomb. But obviously I was attractive enough to arouse my superiors in the desire to climb into bed with me. These nasty guys had been doing really nothing better than to put their dirty fingers all over my body. My employment ended, therefore, always authentic juicy after a slap, that I Bastards had missed on their advances. It was not an option, to prostitute myself for preserving my job, even if had it every time my immediate dismissal had the effect. The job market in the daily mutated quickly to one of my main readings, and so was my eye one day fell on a display in which a patent service force was needed. The job was to get no problem and today I was, according to Lou, here to stay out of the diner. I was happy and felt I needed. This comforted me over the fact that he was not particularly well paid. These were the costs that caused the dinner is simply too high and I wondered anyway, how to keep the restaurant could. The dinner was living basically from his regular customers and I knew most by name. Staff and guests were a bit like a big family, and I myself have found in my colleague Rose an incredibly good friend. That's why I was looking for, despite the regular payment is not an alternative. For Lou, I knew just what I was. Besides, I could take in an emergency even Danny hour, what could really be gold value in some circumstances. Until now I had gone well with the dinner and I was hoping to stabilize the current decline in sales would.
scurried After showering, I returned to the bedroom, crack on my closet and pulled me out of underwear, jeans and a sweater. My mind wandered during which continue to Jasper Whitlock, my other boss. He and Lou were as different as fire and water, but they were absolutely in common. Jasper was a very reserved and cool contemporary, but he had his paws from the female staff and made sure that did the score of his club. Again and again, some here were abusive and started to grab for the operations, once the alcohol had uninhibited enough. The security they kept us from the neck, but you had to listen to all kinds and about dancing from this super-rich on the nose . Let The guests were all members of high society in Seattle and dealing with them was anything but easy. Above all, the men were behaving like pigs every now and then and thought they could do with a little waitress what they wanted. But the women were not much better. The only difference with the guys was that they did not try to harass a body. And yet ... every second they let me feel how small I was in their eyes anyway. What was worse? How fair game to be treated and constantly exposed silly sayings and clumsy come-on be? Or it was not even worse, the contempt in the eyes read the female guests to do? The difference was negligible, it hurt every time, no matter how it was lowered. Nevertheless, I gulped down everything, because I was dependent on this extra money.
Would not I desperately need the money, I would have long since Jasper slammed my resignation on the desk. He was not a bad employer, but he could not change or influence society. At least I could pay a few more and the residue was worth the hassle. Sometimes it felt like it would increase the demands of itself and the stack of unpaid bills would in time larger. Even the tax refund was not sufficient to pay all at once. Soon, the health insurance was due, the car had to be repaired urgently and Danny needed new shoes. Money rules the world, I thought sarcastically. I knew that huge amounts of dollars in a bank account could not make one happy, but sometimes I would have liked to have more of it on my own. Anyway, I had to get right with my budget and mostly I mastered this balancing act quite well. Hungry, we had not yet and that was the most important thing. But it would have been nice if I could offer more Danny.
Danny.
My little son was the sunshine of my life and why I abrackerte me so. For him, I would have taken ten other jobs when I told him this could provide a little luxury. Unfortunately, there was never enough for a lot. An ice cream once in between or a visit to the cinema were well inside, but when the clothes we started already. We were both wearing clothes at second hand, as the expensive brands I simply could not afford. For now, it was still okay, but at some point he would notice that his classmates stood out visually from him. The pressure to adapt, would increase further and thus the desire for the things that I could not give him. If only for Jake it would have paid would have been easier lot. The cowardly pigs, however, had deposed before his birth and did not care at all about him. I was completely on my own after my father had me at the time abandoned and banished from his life. The reason was so simple, and frightening. I refused to abort and gave him a reason for me to sit on the street. Fortunately, I had inherited some money from my mother. Eighteen years old and pregnant, I was finally landed in Seattle and not come off here.
Sighing I pulled myself together and tried not to think of the past. Since there was nothing I could miss and so was quiet in Danny's room to wake him. For a moment I stopped at the doorway and looked pensively his childish face. The soft cheeks, her curly brown hair and pale skin. He saw Jake at all similar, but came across to me. My heart went together with love and I was again very easily felt. It was all I needed to be happy. To hell with the men and with love. I had Danny and handed me. Cautiously, I entered the room and stood over him. I shook the delicate slender shoulders and whispered in his ear.
"Wake up, my Treasure! You have to get up! Mommy has to take you to school. "
winking he opened his eyes and looked at me with tired eyes. He rubbed his face and smacked his lips, yawning slightly. That was so sweet, I had to grin.
" Mommy, I do not get up yet. I can not stay here, I'm just fine? "
Laughing, I shook my head.
" Honey, you know you can not. To do this you're too small. Mommy gets in trouble if they can up alone. "
" Oh, Menno, "he grumbled. He rolled onto his back and then sat down on cumbersome. His Teddy had he, as always in his arms and he was yawning again heartily. I pulled the blanket from his body and watched it, as he slipped as the lightning from the bed and darted into the bathroom. If Danny was awake first, could not hold this bundle of energy more. I followed him into the bathroom, helped him in washing and took care that he is also properly cleaned his teeth. Then we went for breakfast in the kitchen, where we both have our spooning cornflakes.
"Mommy holst, you me from preschool?" He asked me with his mouth full. "Swallow first, then talk"
I said automatically.
He only nodded, because he just had his mouth full again.
"Yes, I'll pick you up today," I replied finally and lovingly rumpled his hair. "Bibi has got no time and I'll come in their place."
Bibi was our neighbor and my mental support. She had believed me when I was really dirty and I no longer knew where before nothing but problems. You helped me to this day with their life experience and wisdom and was my personal angel on earth. They also took care of absolutely nothing on Danny, picked him up from school and provided him with affection, until I came home from work. Excluding them I have probably long been problems with the youth welfare office, or would have become dependent on welfare. Only with their help I was able to my jobs and pursue them did it because she loved us both. We were like her second family, because their own children more than once or twice a year, saw. Danny was totally crazy about his Bibi and saw her as his "granny".
"Oh, Mommy go, you then with me in the park?" He shouted and fell on my neck.
I returned the embrace and breathed deep the clean, sweet fragrance children.
"Yes, my darling. But now eat your cornflakes over, or we'll be late."
happy he obeyed, and soon we were on our way. Once we arrived after a grueling bus ride from the preschool, I waited until he safely disappeared in the building was before I set off again. From here I walked to the bus and gave up because I was so faster than with a public transport. I had quite a hurry as always, to arrive in time in the diner. When Lou hated anything, it was tardiness. In this respect he was really uncomfortable. The rest of the way so I brought in the usual endurance slipped behind me and finally at the last minute, and with wet feet through the back entrance. Breathless, I threw my umbrella in the holder, at a run leaving the raincoat slip from my shoulders and grabbed my uniform off the hook. This is a really ugly off-white coat, on which there was nothing to talk nice, but I was not on any fashion show. At least he was practical and I did not use my own clothes.
No sooner had I my "costume" was attracted by the punch card and wanted me to sneak into the kitchen, when the office door opened. Lou stuck out his head, looked at me and then looked pointedly at the clock. His face was by no means angry, but he showed his usual good-natured face.
"Hey, I'm still on time. I will not listen," I said, grinning. He screwed up his face
a smile and threatened me with a finger.
"Next time I'll get you, young lady," he teased me and I pushed my hands, smiling into the pockets of my coat. Frech I rocked on my flat shoes and down to me a disturbing hair blew in my face and shrugged his shoulders indifferently.
"We'll see," I said boldly, and he shook his head resignedly.
Lou was a giant of a guy. He had a striking resemblance to Popeye the Sailor, for his highly polished bald head was as smooth as a billiard ball. The only hair on his body flourished from his shirt up his neck and made him look very menacing. Who But he knew, who knew that he could not fly what to do harm. I glanced at the clock and saw that it was shortly after eight clock. aground It's time to let the guests outside and inside.
"I'm off a look, Lou," I informed him dutifully and he just grunted in agreement, before he disappeared into his office. I went to the restaurant and already saw Rose, who was at it to wipe the first tables. After a brief welcome, I helped her, and shortly afterwards, the first knocked on the door and was about to order his breakfast. The next few hours were very hectic, like every morning, and I longed for a break. At half past ten it was finally over. The second layer started and I indulged myself with a donut Rose. The coffee was missing of course not and I finally felt again like a human being. I bit just relish in the donut, as Rose himself for a job in the club asked.
"Hey, Bella," she asked with his mouth full, "but you're working in this club. Do you know if that still need someone? I could use a little extra coal. "
I almost choked me and took a moment before I could answer.
" Want to do to you that seriously? The guys running around in the place are just terrible. Imaginary and without manners. With your looks you will not be able to save before stupid sayings. The dig even me, and I know God is not Miss Universe. "
evil she looked at me.
" Bella, how many times shall I say, that thou shalt not do so bad? You are pretty. How do you get only the idea, you is not nuttin attractive? "
" Perhaps this is the fact that I have had since Danny's birth date no more. "
" Bella, I want you, did not offend. But .... The only reason why you do not have dates, you are yourself. Your constant "Curb yes stay away from me, "have driven view, even the bravest men. You could dozens of men. Can not you see how they stare at you all?"
If she was referring to the older men among our regular guests, she was certainly right. But the woman would have stared at, which was under the age of sixty. Otherwise, I could not share Rose's assessment of my female attraction. I was a good average. Not ugly, but not overwhelmingly pretty. Normal plane. Also .... after the disastrous relationship with Jake, I finished with the men anyway. The guy who could break through my armor, had been a special man to be, or will be born. The direction that struck the conversation, I was uncomfortable and I wanted to quickly talk about something else.
"Let's change the subject. You know that I have nothing more with men on guard," I replied, determined as usual and she rolled her eyes. But that did not bother me particularly, I was so used to. "What As for the job, I can imagine on Saturday Jasper, if you like. Frankly, the club is buzzing just huge and a few more hands would not hurt. Let's see what we can do. say no more as he can not ask costs nothing. "
Her face lit up, at the prospect of earning a few dollars more. She was like me, chronically broke.
"I thank you for that."
me firmly embraced, as Lou suddenly in the doorway. His face was crushed and his bright eyes were pleading with me. I guessed wrong.
"Bella, I have bad news. You must now insert a double layer. Anna has become ill and can not come."
He looked at me carefully, waiting for my explosion. My head was hit on the idea. What to do with Danny? Who should pick him up? Lou interrupted this whirlpool.
"I know what you wanted to do with your son, but I really need you desperately here. And before you ask. ... Except you is not free or no longer available. "
Damn! This injustice was so corrosive. Every time I undertook was with Danny, something came up. Now it was a short-term to organize support for him and restored him to disappoint again. Life was pretty tough sometimes.
I yawned and stared hard then squinting through my eyelashes through the window. Outside it was still dark and raining. The drops evenly knocked on the window panes and I was looking in the mind after the right clothes for Danny. His raincoat was it really almost too small, but for a while it would go. His jeans still hanging on drying rack in the bathroom, decided it should be dry. Thick sweater and his strong shoes ... I knew more about it and at the same time, as the rain increased massively in strength. The soft beating swelled to a pressing pounding and I snorted, annoyed. The weather in Seattle was so corrosive! Why did it take me and Danny in only one area where the precipitation rate was so high? Shaking his head, I sat up and stretched yawning arms up over my head. I winced briefly as I heard it crackling slightly. You're getting old, Bella, I confessed to me and tried using circular movements of the shoulder muscles to relax my tense. A new mattress would certainly not have hurt, but if not a miracle from heaven and fell directly into my bed, then they had to still take a while. Reluctantly, I crawled
to the edge of the bed, threw back but had another one last longing look. sleep until the next opportunity than an hour longer than usual, it would still take quite a while. This week I really had to get out of bed early every day because one of the waitresses was suffering from flu. This meant in plain language, my free Saturday fell through. Fortunately, Lou had me classified for the morning shift, I would at least have the afternoon a bit of time for Danny, before the evening I had to continue in the nightclub. This second job was indeed damn hard, but quite lucrative. At least for my modest financial demands. Solely with the thought of how tired I would be on all day Sunday, when I first came in the early hours of the club, I was dizzy. However, Sunday was really the only day of the week on which I did not work and spend time with Danny as undisturbed could. Dear, I took it into account, to fall over from sheer weakness, but to do without a single minute with my son. But I was only human and not a machine, so I wanted from me and for some time to myself. There were few occasions when I could drop me and just had fun. I was a mother, good friend, a waitress and maid of all work, but no woman more. My love life has remained Danny's birth completely on the track, which I though was quite right. I was afraid to love me again because I did not want to be hurt again like back then. Danny's father had done a great job and my confidence in the world of men was exhausted. But that did not prevent me to dream of love and of a man who carried me on his hands.
If it did, I was happy in bed and dozing off me. Then I dreamed of an easier life, a person who shared it with me. I had no partner and I had the self-selected so because I was too cowardly to risk anything. Still, I missed off and a strong shoulder to lean on me I could. Some nights I cried myself to sleep because I was afraid. Fear of having to be alone old, like my friend Bibi. When the day was over, with its distractions and concerns, and broke the darkness, I longed for someone to tell me winning bids and caught me courage when the day shit was gone. Unfortunately, most guys were an absolute disaster and ran for miles like this, if you, the words "single mother" just heard. But they had already overcome me, but not a child came into question. So it was here that I went through life as a single and myself entirely devoted to my child - if I had not even work.
Finally I pulled myself together and laboriously swung his legs out of bed. With lumbering steps, I shuffled in my small bathroom and even managed, despite my still quite sleepy state, not to run against the door. She squeaked softly as I opened it and I entered the tiny room. The smell of laundry dried in the air was heavy and I tipped the window immediately. Then I pushed the drying rack to the side, bent me over the sink and lightly brushed my teeth and calmly. While I use the brush properly scrubbed every corner of my mouth, I looked around a little. Sometimes I found a corner in the apartment overwhelming, but with the exorbitant rents in Seattle, the chances were zero, that Danny and I were ever able to afford another house. Even this one was hard to pay. At the end of the month the money was always scarce and I had difficulty in us by bringing neat. Danny was still growing and I paid a very healthy diet as possible. But the time was now unfortunately very expensive. For me it would have done even spaghetti with ketchup, but for him I only wanted the best. Sometimes I was lucky and I grabbed the goods set down the day before. They were still edible and tasted good in general, only half. Over the years I had become a real expert when it came to get hold of high quality goods at affordable prices.
It was always a struggle, but for Danny, I took it in their stride. What was already a regular plated bank account, to the contented smile of my son? I spit out the toothpaste, rinsed my mouth and then climbed into the shower. While the water ran over my body, I thought about whether I should allow myself a few days off next month. I spent far too little time with Danny and his sad face when I had to cancel the planned Saturday with him, had cut my heavy heart. We just needed a little time for us. His childhood would never come back and I wanted as much as possible noticing. Yes. ... Holiday sounded really good. Although I would be missing the tips, but even as I occasionally got lucky, there was a small Tax refund from the tax office to. From I could divert a few dollars that would be great consequence. The rest of the sum would probably kick the bucket for the current insurance. I decided to Lou talk to me unexpectedly take a week off. As often as I stepped in at the diner as a skeleton crew, he could hardly refuse me this request.
The dinner ... it was the first job where I felt really good. The fast-food restaurant was located in the inner city and was to become my second home. There I was the cook, operation and general dogsbody. My boss was a fundamentally decent, somewhat the aging guy who paid my wages as agreed upon and nothing out of punctuality and diligence expected of me. That was for other jobs not always been so. My former employer had all tried to go after me for some time on the laundry. I never understood why because I was not exactly considered a walking sex bomb. But obviously I was attractive enough to arouse my superiors in the desire to climb into bed with me. These nasty guys had been doing really nothing better than to put their dirty fingers all over my body. My employment ended, therefore, always authentic juicy after a slap, that I Bastards had missed on their advances. It was not an option, to prostitute myself for preserving my job, even if had it every time my immediate dismissal had the effect. The job market in the daily mutated quickly to one of my main readings, and so was my eye one day fell on a display in which a patent service force was needed. The job was to get no problem and today I was, according to Lou, here to stay out of the diner. I was happy and felt I needed. This comforted me over the fact that he was not particularly well paid. These were the costs that caused the dinner is simply too high and I wondered anyway, how to keep the restaurant could. The dinner was living basically from his regular customers and I knew most by name. Staff and guests were a bit like a big family, and I myself have found in my colleague Rose an incredibly good friend. That's why I was looking for, despite the regular payment is not an alternative. For Lou, I knew just what I was. Besides, I could take in an emergency even Danny hour, what could really be gold value in some circumstances. Until now I had gone well with the dinner and I was hoping to stabilize the current decline in sales would.
scurried After showering, I returned to the bedroom, crack on my closet and pulled me out of underwear, jeans and a sweater. My mind wandered during which continue to Jasper Whitlock, my other boss. He and Lou were as different as fire and water, but they were absolutely in common. Jasper was a very reserved and cool contemporary, but he had his paws from the female staff and made sure that did the score of his club. Again and again, some here were abusive and started to grab for the operations, once the alcohol had uninhibited enough. The security they kept us from the neck, but you had to listen to all kinds and about dancing from this super-rich on the nose . Let The guests were all members of high society in Seattle and dealing with them was anything but easy. Above all, the men were behaving like pigs every now and then and thought they could do with a little waitress what they wanted. But the women were not much better. The only difference with the guys was that they did not try to harass a body. And yet ... every second they let me feel how small I was in their eyes anyway. What was worse? How fair game to be treated and constantly exposed silly sayings and clumsy come-on be? Or it was not even worse, the contempt in the eyes read the female guests to do? The difference was negligible, it hurt every time, no matter how it was lowered. Nevertheless, I gulped down everything, because I was dependent on this extra money.
Would not I desperately need the money, I would have long since Jasper slammed my resignation on the desk. He was not a bad employer, but he could not change or influence society. At least I could pay a few more and the residue was worth the hassle. Sometimes it felt like it would increase the demands of itself and the stack of unpaid bills would in time larger. Even the tax refund was not sufficient to pay all at once. Soon, the health insurance was due, the car had to be repaired urgently and Danny needed new shoes. Money rules the world, I thought sarcastically. I knew that huge amounts of dollars in a bank account could not make one happy, but sometimes I would have liked to have more of it on my own. Anyway, I had to get right with my budget and mostly I mastered this balancing act quite well. Hungry, we had not yet and that was the most important thing. But it would have been nice if I could offer more Danny.
Danny.
My little son was the sunshine of my life and why I abrackerte me so. For him, I would have taken ten other jobs when I told him this could provide a little luxury. Unfortunately, there was never enough for a lot. An ice cream once in between or a visit to the cinema were well inside, but when the clothes we started already. We were both wearing clothes at second hand, as the expensive brands I simply could not afford. For now, it was still okay, but at some point he would notice that his classmates stood out visually from him. The pressure to adapt, would increase further and thus the desire for the things that I could not give him. If only for Jake it would have paid would have been easier lot. The cowardly pigs, however, had deposed before his birth and did not care at all about him. I was completely on my own after my father had me at the time abandoned and banished from his life. The reason was so simple, and frightening. I refused to abort and gave him a reason for me to sit on the street. Fortunately, I had inherited some money from my mother. Eighteen years old and pregnant, I was finally landed in Seattle and not come off here.
Sighing I pulled myself together and tried not to think of the past. Since there was nothing I could miss and so was quiet in Danny's room to wake him. For a moment I stopped at the doorway and looked pensively his childish face. The soft cheeks, her curly brown hair and pale skin. He saw Jake at all similar, but came across to me. My heart went together with love and I was again very easily felt. It was all I needed to be happy. To hell with the men and with love. I had Danny and handed me. Cautiously, I entered the room and stood over him. I shook the delicate slender shoulders and whispered in his ear.
"Wake up, my Treasure! You have to get up! Mommy has to take you to school. "
winking he opened his eyes and looked at me with tired eyes. He rubbed his face and smacked his lips, yawning slightly. That was so sweet, I had to grin.
" Mommy, I do not get up yet. I can not stay here, I'm just fine? "
Laughing, I shook my head.
" Honey, you know you can not. To do this you're too small. Mommy gets in trouble if they can up alone. "
" Oh, Menno, "he grumbled. He rolled onto his back and then sat down on cumbersome. His Teddy had he, as always in his arms and he was yawning again heartily. I pulled the blanket from his body and watched it, as he slipped as the lightning from the bed and darted into the bathroom. If Danny was awake first, could not hold this bundle of energy more. I followed him into the bathroom, helped him in washing and took care that he is also properly cleaned his teeth. Then we went for breakfast in the kitchen, where we both have our spooning cornflakes.
"Mommy holst, you me from preschool?" He asked me with his mouth full. "Swallow first, then talk"
I said automatically.
He only nodded, because he just had his mouth full again.
"Yes, I'll pick you up today," I replied finally and lovingly rumpled his hair. "Bibi has got no time and I'll come in their place."
Bibi was our neighbor and my mental support. She had believed me when I was really dirty and I no longer knew where before nothing but problems. You helped me to this day with their life experience and wisdom and was my personal angel on earth. They also took care of absolutely nothing on Danny, picked him up from school and provided him with affection, until I came home from work. Excluding them I have probably long been problems with the youth welfare office, or would have become dependent on welfare. Only with their help I was able to my jobs and pursue them did it because she loved us both. We were like her second family, because their own children more than once or twice a year, saw. Danny was totally crazy about his Bibi and saw her as his "granny".
"Oh, Mommy go, you then with me in the park?" He shouted and fell on my neck.
I returned the embrace and breathed deep the clean, sweet fragrance children.
"Yes, my darling. But now eat your cornflakes over, or we'll be late."
happy he obeyed, and soon we were on our way. Once we arrived after a grueling bus ride from the preschool, I waited until he safely disappeared in the building was before I set off again. From here I walked to the bus and gave up because I was so faster than with a public transport. I had quite a hurry as always, to arrive in time in the diner. When Lou hated anything, it was tardiness. In this respect he was really uncomfortable. The rest of the way so I brought in the usual endurance slipped behind me and finally at the last minute, and with wet feet through the back entrance. Breathless, I threw my umbrella in the holder, at a run leaving the raincoat slip from my shoulders and grabbed my uniform off the hook. This is a really ugly off-white coat, on which there was nothing to talk nice, but I was not on any fashion show. At least he was practical and I did not use my own clothes.
No sooner had I my "costume" was attracted by the punch card and wanted me to sneak into the kitchen, when the office door opened. Lou stuck out his head, looked at me and then looked pointedly at the clock. His face was by no means angry, but he showed his usual good-natured face.
"Hey, I'm still on time. I will not listen," I said, grinning. He screwed up his face
a smile and threatened me with a finger.
"Next time I'll get you, young lady," he teased me and I pushed my hands, smiling into the pockets of my coat. Frech I rocked on my flat shoes and down to me a disturbing hair blew in my face and shrugged his shoulders indifferently.
"We'll see," I said boldly, and he shook his head resignedly.
Lou was a giant of a guy. He had a striking resemblance to Popeye the Sailor, for his highly polished bald head was as smooth as a billiard ball. The only hair on his body flourished from his shirt up his neck and made him look very menacing. Who But he knew, who knew that he could not fly what to do harm. I glanced at the clock and saw that it was shortly after eight clock. aground It's time to let the guests outside and inside.
"I'm off a look, Lou," I informed him dutifully and he just grunted in agreement, before he disappeared into his office. I went to the restaurant and already saw Rose, who was at it to wipe the first tables. After a brief welcome, I helped her, and shortly afterwards, the first knocked on the door and was about to order his breakfast. The next few hours were very hectic, like every morning, and I longed for a break. At half past ten it was finally over. The second layer started and I indulged myself with a donut Rose. The coffee was missing of course not and I finally felt again like a human being. I bit just relish in the donut, as Rose himself for a job in the club asked.
"Hey, Bella," she asked with his mouth full, "but you're working in this club. Do you know if that still need someone? I could use a little extra coal. "
I almost choked me and took a moment before I could answer.
" Want to do to you that seriously? The guys running around in the place are just terrible. Imaginary and without manners. With your looks you will not be able to save before stupid sayings. The dig even me, and I know God is not Miss Universe. "
evil she looked at me.
" Bella, how many times shall I say, that thou shalt not do so bad? You are pretty. How do you get only the idea, you is not nuttin attractive? "
" Perhaps this is the fact that I have had since Danny's birth date no more. "
" Bella, I want you, did not offend. But .... The only reason why you do not have dates, you are yourself. Your constant "Curb yes stay away from me, "have driven view, even the bravest men. You could dozens of men. Can not you see how they stare at you all?"
If she was referring to the older men among our regular guests, she was certainly right. But the woman would have stared at, which was under the age of sixty. Otherwise, I could not share Rose's assessment of my female attraction. I was a good average. Not ugly, but not overwhelmingly pretty. Normal plane. Also .... after the disastrous relationship with Jake, I finished with the men anyway. The guy who could break through my armor, had been a special man to be, or will be born. The direction that struck the conversation, I was uncomfortable and I wanted to quickly talk about something else.
"Let's change the subject. You know that I have nothing more with men on guard," I replied, determined as usual and she rolled her eyes. But that did not bother me particularly, I was so used to. "What As for the job, I can imagine on Saturday Jasper, if you like. Frankly, the club is buzzing just huge and a few more hands would not hurt. Let's see what we can do. say no more as he can not ask costs nothing. "
Her face lit up, at the prospect of earning a few dollars more. She was like me, chronically broke.
"I thank you for that."
me firmly embraced, as Lou suddenly in the doorway. His face was crushed and his bright eyes were pleading with me. I guessed wrong.
"Bella, I have bad news. You must now insert a double layer. Anna has become ill and can not come."
He looked at me carefully, waiting for my explosion. My head was hit on the idea. What to do with Danny? Who should pick him up? Lou interrupted this whirlpool.
"I know what you wanted to do with your son, but I really need you desperately here. And before you ask. ... Except you is not free or no longer available. "
Damn! This injustice was so corrosive. Every time I undertook was with Danny, something came up. Now it was a short-term to organize support for him and restored him to disappoint again. Life was pretty tough sometimes.
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