I brought Danny like every morning to school. Tired I was sitting next to him in the subway and listened to his cheerful chatter. My son turned me off at least for a few minutes, so I was not constantly on brooding.
Bibi's story touched me deep and I feel sympathy for them, in spite of anger because of the botched Date, unbroken.
It makes me very thoughtful when I recalled her words to mind.
"I will not let you commit the same mistake as me."
These were her words last night. Half the night I hit my ears, because I compared the situation with Bibi's life story. After I spend hours in bed, rolled back and forth, I finally came to the only possible conclusion.
We had nothing, absolutely nothing in common.
Bibi and her loved each other very much and when Thomas Bibi had not had so much fear, they would certainly still his wife.
with me was the case differently.
Edward Cullen felt no love for me. He wanted me to submit my body and just for a while its fun.
That he put on me so it meant a tough test for me that I wanted to exist but not necessarily.
Still, it was my decision, when and with whom I would go to bed and not those of Bibi, Rose or anyone else. All thought it a good thing they were worried even, but to me this excessive care went much too far.
I felt now by my friends distress, as Edward himself From him I did not expect anything else, and accordingly gave him stand up, but against Bibi or Rose, this was not so easy. For the most part it was because I did not want to push them over the head. As in me, the deep-rooted fear lurked, to my father and Jake, losing my friends. So I swallowed my anger down and ate everything dear inside me.
Well, not quite. Edward got a sizeable chunk from it. My conscience did so, within tolerable limits, because it happened so no wrong.
He deserved it certainly felt my anger. With so much arrogance and insolence, but sometimes I was left off the spit.
A tiny hand slipped on my cheek.
"Mum!" Danny whispered, "Why do you look so sad? I like that! "
dismay I looked at my son and immediately conjured up a smile on my lips.
"Mummy is not sad, darling," I said quickly and put my hand on his. I put on my mouth and pressed a gentle kiss on it.
"I am very tired because I slept poorly."
That was not even a lie. Danny I would just never tell the reason for my insomnia. His brown eyes looked
again much happy and he snuggled close to me. Twining her arms around my child, I pressed him tight and felt such a deep love that I almost came to tears.
Whether Cullen knew from my son?
No, I did not really believe. I briefly thought about telling him so. Most men are scared away when they learned that it gave me only as a double.
Cullen looked at the matter differently. I was worried that he could use Danny to get at me.
That would be unforgivable. Danny had to be strictly kept out, no matter how it developed further from this story.
held the subway and we left hand in hand the wagon. It was drizzling slightly and I put Danny on his raincoat. Hopping to it ran along beside me and I was infected by his cheerfulness me. The song "Singing in the Rain" hersummend myself, I brought him to his preschool, said goodbye with love and made my way to dinner.
Rose her shift began after me and so I could indulge in peace my thoughts.
"Hey, what do you think so after hard?" Came a clear voice.
I smiled and turned around.
"Alice! What are you doing here so early? Actually, you should at this time again turning in bed. You have yet have had a long night. "
Alice sat upon the stool, which were lined up outside the bar.
"I have not worked since the fiasco. I'm sick, "she said quietly.
Alice did not look good. She had clearly lost a few kilos, which made her delicate form only look more fragile.
depth eye shadow unfavorable adorned her pale face, only her green eyes shone in her face.
She was unhappy, but determined.
What particularly struck her was modified Article Was it otherwise always happy as a rubber duck walk through the world, they now had a serious and self- vice versa. No smile lit up her face, her whole-hearted manner was gone.
"Visually you can remove the disease entirely. You look terrible, Alice, "I said honestly.
but now she grinned.
"Then I can start after my dismissal is still in the haunted house!"
"You're really serious?"
She nodded vigorously.
"Yes, I can not bear to see him every day. This week has opened my eyes. I chased a dream, ignoring the reality completely. He has never shown the slightest interest in me. So far, I've imagined myself, that he wants nothing to do with an employee and asked me one day to cancel so that we can be together. "
She laughed bitterly.
"Stupid is not it? He will never ask me! He has now made this blonde and I will not watch him every night they abknutscht. I can not stand Bella, "she concluded desperately.
"When will you start again? I am also in the club tonight. Tomorrow is Saturday, since I rarely work in the diner and therefore can sleep a little longer. "
" I'm coming too! It does not matter, it rauszuzögern. I'll tell him today that he is a new service to look. There is nothing to him . Make He wanted to fire me anyway, it is this beautiful redhead would not stop. "
" Bronze, "I said automatically.
"Please?" She cried irritably.
"His hair is not red, it's bronze," I said foolishly.
"All right! Then just bronze! In any case, I will never stay where I am not encouraged. He has made his position clear and I am not so stupid to believe that he will change his mind about me ever again. He is a stubborn ass! "
you talked himself right into a rage and finally got some color in his face. So I liked my friend better.
Other mothers also had beautiful sons!
You should view these times themselves internalize my inner voice whispered.
"I will today evening promised to stay by your side,"
looked gratefully at me.
went to the door to dinner and a young man with a single red rose appeared.
He went straight to the counter and looked inquiringly at the others.
"Seeking a Isabella Swan!"
"I am," I called out to him.
"I have a rose to give to you."
Amazed, I took the beautiful, heavenly scented flower to me and sniffed at the velvety petals.
I drew still refuses to accept and, in parallel with the enclosed card.
With trembling fingers, I took it between his fingers and read the message written on it.
Hello Bella! More
was not there!
Confused, I stared at the cards, as another messenger came into the diner. He also held a long-stemmed, exquisite rose in his hands.
Again, she was there for me and this time was a message.
you ... I wanted
exactly where the sentence ended.
again came a Blumenbote one and provided a more rose with the corresponding card from me.
The whole thing happened a while so on and finally I did a complete bouquet of roses in his hands and the cards showed the following message:
Hello Bella!
I did not mean to offend.
I hope you accept my sincere apology and do not mind taking my behavior. See these roses as a peace offer and let me know if I still have a chance with you.
Edward
A joyful look at me covered.
Immediately I was angry about the fact that I, like all other representatives of my gender, blown away was when he did something clichéd and sent me flowers.
"Wow, who's the matter since clouded the brain?" Marveled and Alice looked at from all sides, the beautiful roses.
"Edward Cullen," I told her.
"Is the redhead? Pardon wanted, bronze crested say I, "she grinned. I nodded wordlessly
and sniffed back in the bunch.
"You lucky," sighed she jealous.
"Whether this is so lucky," I said doubtfully.
"Now come on, Bella. You have to admit that he is an incredible effort been added. That makes a man only when he is on what a woman. You could at least thank you to him. He does not always have ulterior motives. "
Alice was right! A thank-you for his effort would not really asking too much. But how should I go about it?
I had neither an address nor a phone number. I would have to ask Bibi, at that time in the park picked up a business card from him on the floor. He got comfortable there and so was my friend, send him the message, as she confessed to me afterwards.
The fit does not suit me! It would be a confirmation for them to have acted properly and that Edward Cullen probably was an asshole but not as previously assumed.
The nakedness I would not give me. He would show up sooner or later, probably tonight.
"Will you meet me tonight from?" Alice said abruptly, "I will not just run into Jasper."
"Yes, yes, I will get you. I turn not away from your own site. Word of honor! "Alice laughed
ordered to what to eat to get back a bit and made me zuzulegen the afternoon on society.
evening we walked along the back entrance of the club and headed for the recreation rooms. We were not quite there, as Jaspers voice we stayed.
"Alice, a word!"
She turned slowly around and he came up with energetic steps toward them.
"You give us so again the honor," he said sarcastically.
pain was in her eyes as she returned his cold stare. She seemed suddenly so small and helpless, that my heart contracted before compassion.
"I was sick," her voice sounded and looked set without hesitation, into the blue eyes of her great love, "I also want to tell you that I will terminate. You wanted to fire me anyway, so why do not we make it short and I stop. I naturally remain until a replacement is set for me. In your eyes I may be irresponsible, but I still know how to behave. "
amazement I looked at Alice. She saved just in an impressive way their pride and this seemed to surprise even Jasper completely.
with raised eyebrow and opaque expression he fought off a response.
"You need not to resign", he brought out, "I have forgiven you your impossible behavior long ago. You know that I am in my club is very sensitive. Forget it simple, I do it too. "
" But Jasper, "was heard to say a husky female voice," if she wants to go, but then let them. "There was this blonde
poison, with Jasper on that evening had herumgeknutscht. It must indeed be something serious when they showed up here again and intervened in its affairs.
Alice clenched his fingers into small fists. She would probably prefer this snake smashed her fist in the face and she trembled with the effort to master himself.
cats detention, they came over to our little group and stood conspicuously next to Jasper. He made no move, however, they to attract, but studied with a pensive face Alice's beautiful face.
"Jasper," purred the woman, "Did you understand me?"
He looked up confused, as if the woman at his side, only now noticing.
"Monica, you're here already!"
Angrily she crossed her arms over her luscious breasts.
"Yes, however, and I'm talking to you. I said she should go but if they do not want to work for you. "
Frosty, he considered this Monica.
"And I told her that she should forget it! Mixed you are not in my business affairs, "provided they
furiously taking a look duel with Jasper, which she lost, of course. No one could withstand his icy eyes, a long time.
know "what, Jasper? Do something you like! It's over between us. There are a dozen other men who know me to appreciate more than you! "
She turned on her heel and walked away.
"I'm terribly sorry," Alice whispered, ashamed, "that's all my fault."
"Do not worry, Alice. Me anyway, was too demanding on time, "said it with a gorgeous grin, "and now go to your work. The guests do not wait. "
He made his direction in office when he turned around again.
"Oh, Alice!"
"Yes?"
"with the termination, you forget very quickly, or else I'll spank your pretty ass."
was the face of my friend so shocked that he amused Laughter broke out. He disappeared into his office and left a completely confused Alice.
"What was that for now, Bella!"
"I do not know exactly, but it seems as would the fight have been the best decision of your life. Now he takes up the least true and not too tight. Come on, we need to work. "
The club was, as always grossly overcrowded, the music thundered from the speakers and guests celebrated exuberantly.
I constantly glanced to the entrance, because I wanted to know if Edward would emerge. I admitted that I was then consumed him again.
Again and again I was looking for his handsome face. It was tough today, but since Alice was finally the old woman, it was still great fun to work on their side.
I went to the bar to my leave next order. While I waited for Juan finished mixed the cocktails, a velvet voice whispered in my ear.
"Hello Beauty"
I quickly turned around and my heart gave a joyful leap, because I looked into the emerald green eyes of the man who turned my world upside down.
"Can I talk to you a moment?" He asked unusually polite.
I nodded.
"Sure, I just have to bring my order to the guests."
"I'm waiting in the corner," he said, pointing with a nod in the direction.
excitement I accepted the cocktails and brought them miraculously, safe and sound, to the people at the table.
I moved in a trance through the crowd to reach him after that. He was already there and took on eye contact, who left not until I was standing right in front of him.
He drew me a little deeper into the protection of the palm trees that stood there, so we had some privacy. It was already quite dark in the club. We were almost unobserved, and his tall, lean body shielded me anyway.
"Did you get my message?"
I had my head once again put in the neck, because he was so big. He saw it and bent is down slightly to me. His scent was incomparably sensual and he got high like a drug. I breathed deeply and put my hand on his chest. To keep him from me or because I wanted to touch him, I did not know!
"Yes," I said softly.
He chuckled in amusement.
"More did not you say?"
With big eyes, I looked at him and shook his head.
He bent low to me, his lips brushed against my ear and his hot whisper me beguiled.
"Please tell me that you forgive me!" He asked and took his earlobe between his teeth
My scalp pulled together in delight, and goose bumps spread over a large area on my skin.
The hand clutched to his chest, in his shirt and I came accidentally from a groan.
He ran his tongue in my ear caressing, sensual me while my body shook with pleasure.
I did not care that he was a womanizer! I did not care that he would probably break my heart! And I did not care that I had sworn to me only yesterday, I never engage in it.
When I finally did not risk anything, I would forever be alone. At least Edward Cullen was honest and said plainly that he is just my body wanted. While I was at the time the only one with which he amused himself, I could enjoy it.
"I forgive you!" I gasped and pulled his mouth to my lips.
passionately I pressed myself to him and his groan of relief told me how much he longed for me.
minutes we kissed us, ignoring our surroundings slipped deeper and deeper into the corner, his hands crossed nervously over my body.
I found him totally enjoyed his indescribable kisses, his tongue, which explored every corner of my mouth.
A last gasp of reason captured me, however.
"We can not do that?"
He caressed my neck as I spoke, and my words were faded yet, as I zurückbog this to him to facilitate access.
"Why not? We want each other, that's not a bad thing. "
He distributed many kisses on my cleavage and I stopped thinking.
His hand stroked the soft skin of my thigh. But before I could return his affection, we broke a woman's voice.
"Edward, there you are! I search for you for ages! Did not you say you want to get only what to drink? "
hastily apart we went and he turned immediately to face her.
I recognized the person. It was that Tracey, whom he had had this at our first meeting already. She ran up to him and kissed him. Edward not pushed her away, returned the kiss or might not.
Now it was official! I was the biggest fool on earth, and fell again purely on Edward Cullen. As he constantly told me how much he wanted me, and desired, as long as he was enjoying himself with his many playmates.
In our passionate encounter that kept it determines all the time in mind that even a suitable replacement was at hand with which he could round off the evening, I should reject him. This
hypocrites!
With pain in my heart I reached out and scrubbed him one.
"This is for your lies, Cullen! Never again will I fall for your scam, which is a pass for all. "
I felt the first tears even before she made her eyes swelled and rushed past him. I had to get out of here!
During my flight, I bumped into at random to guests, but that interested me much. Out in the fresh air, it was time. The pressure of the dammed in me exploded, in a salty tears. Sobbing, I pressed
me against the wall and let out the pain.
Why always me? I was so unlovable that everyone cared a damn about my feelings. The knot in my stomach did not dissolve, but the tears dried up after a while, until only now and then, a dry sob was heard from me.
unhappy I stared into the dark night sky, look at the committee today was not a single star. Even the sky seems to mourn, I'm bitter.
"Bella! Here you are? "
Enraged, I turned to Him.
"Why can not just leave me alone?"
"This is not Tracey the way you think. Let me explain it yet. "
" I will not hear of your lies! It is indifferent to me whether you sleep with Tracey or a hundred other women in your circle of friends. YOU are the same to me, "I shouted at him applied.
He came closer, he could now see my face closer, which previously stood in the shade in secret.
"Oh yeah? If I am so indifferent, why did you cry? "
" I have not cried, "I lied defiantly," I was only the mist in the eyes and now they are just a little flushed. Do not think so, because I you would shed a tear. So much influence did you not me.
evil he looked at me. It suited him not at all that I spoke in such a tone with him and certainly not my dismissive attitude towards him after we came so close before.
I almost would have taken the bait. I thanked this Tracey to have emerged this time, even if the thought unlikely unbearable pain, that he would later bring them and not me mad.
"With you can just say no reasonable sentence," he snapped applied, "I will come back when you've calmed down."
came with every word he ran closer to me and stood close to me.
got back from I to miss him a slap. But my hand was held still in flight from his. He clasped my wrist firmly and pulled me inexorably in itself.
"Dare to never raise a hand against me, Isabella!" He whispered, his velvet voice, "So far I have not considerate of you and me held back. But my patience is almost at the end and I will probably have to resort to other means to get you. "
" You have kept you? "I exclaimed incredulously," What do you do for? You're so vain! "
With a powerful jolt he pressed me tighter to his body and then flowed through me unwanted excitement.
"Little Isabella," he whispered invitingly, "you have no idea how irresistible I can be when I want something really badly. You have only a tiny foretaste of what I would do to you. "He seemed so callous
at these words that shook me. It was not fear, for I was sure, despite all that he would never physically harm me. But what he did to my mind was something else entirely.
piece by piece, he managed to blow holes in my walls. Soon would break this barrier and I had to lay down their arms before him. This day would change my life and I was afraid before now.
"Let me go, Edward," I pleaded with him and a tiny tear me ran out of the corner of my eye.
He caught it with the fingertip and looked at it as if he had seen the crystal clear liquid before.
"I can not, Bella. I've tried and would you remove from my thoughts. I did not spend a day persevered. It is sealed, dear. I will not give up until you're lying in my arms. And if it lasts for eternity. "
He ran again for me tenderly on the cheek, turned and disappeared back inside the building.
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