Sunday was very harmonious, and I cared passionately about Danny. The time we spent together was pretty limited and I tried at least the few hours we had a week with each use, make sense.
After breakfast we packed us a warm again and went into the adjacent park, where we collected the colorful autumn leaves Danny wanted to dry, then glue them in an album. The many parks in Seattle, it was easy, the different shapes and colors to find, since there are trees teeming.
Fröhlich he jumped into a pile of leaves and the wind whirled the many brown, red and yellow leaves around in the air. Danny was right in the middle and cheered with enthusiasm, until a stray leaf from laughing in his open mouth. He spat out the dirt with wet, damp leaf out again in disgust, concluding that he would now prefer to the playground. I did him a favor and put me on the bench, to watch from a safe distance, that he did nothing or was even approached by any stranger.
He stormed the first thing the chute and I sat back satisfied. While I was the day with Danny spent and everything was as usual, I knew that everything had changed.
All night I was happy with a permanent grin on my bed and bracing itself for the next meeting with Edward.
I finally admitted to myself about one that I wanted to have Edward Cullen. It made no sense to deny my burgeoning feelings for him. That would not fit me! If I did something, with all its consequences, I could muster.
was now official!
I would sleep with Edward Cullen and nothing could distract me from this project! Apart from him myself, my conservative, inner voice said sarcastically.
Danny moved from the chute to the swing and beckoned me out. I waved back and took a handkerchief out of my backpack, because the nose was going to be unstoppable.
I blows his nose as quietly as possible and prayed that my cold would dissolve into thin air until tomorrow. I though it was already much better, but endured the matter was not a long time.
No way would let me work Lou in service as long as my nose was not bazillenfreie zone. The last thing he could do now was that someone him the Health Ministry to the neck rushed because he did not follow the statutory health requirements.
Lou behaving strangely lately anyway, he advanced but not so right with the language out.
Something troubled him, so I could see him on the nose! Even Rose, who was for something completely unresponsive, noted that Lou is increasingly retreated to the office on the rumination was imprisoned and permanently.
Hopefully the dinner was not financially poor! Although the store was always full, but the economic crisis was also felt by us. Moreover, was one of our suppliers come off and we had a new endeavor, the significantly higher rates offered. Lou had no other choice than to respond to it so that the daily operation still continued to run smoothly.
let me look up a cry of horror and I realized that Danny crying on the floor and one knee was held. Schell I jumped up and ran to my child.
"Danny, darling! What is it? "I cried in panic.
"Ow, ow, ow, Mummy! It hurts so much. "Howled he," I fell off the swing. "
I kissed his smooth cheek and looked at my bleeding wound. The trousers were torn and small drops of blood were on the up scraping Skin. In my backpack there was the first aid kit, without which I never left the house when I was traveling with Danny. Just like me as a child, Danny had an affinity for accidents and injured one after the other times I cleaned the
Sent basically harmless wound, dabbed some iodine on it and locked it with a plaster. I murmuring comforting words and his tears were soon dried.
"Better?" I asked him dearly and he nodded in agreement.
"Yes, Mummy," he whispered and rubbed his eyes swollen from crying, the dry.
"Should we go home and maybe a giant cup Cocoa drink? "
He beamed back over his face.
"Au fine! Can I have the last piece of cake? You may also bite off it, "he begged.
I promised him the last piece of peach pie yesterday and we were on our way home. At home we have enjoyed together the rest of the day. The collected leaves we placed on the window sill, on the heating elements to them as quickly as possible lost their moisture.
After I had packed in the evening Danny in his pajamas, I took out a thick, fluffy blanket and we huddled close together on the sofa and watched on television Stuart Little. The Story of the little Mouse brought us both laugh and I enjoyed the time with my son in full.
breathed happiness I give a child clean scent and held him in her arms. Confidently, he clung to me and giggled about the funny scenes in the movie.
Later he went to sleep without a murmur and I went to bed. But the longed-for sleep would not come easy. I rolled like so many times lately to and fro, with my thoughts always with Edward.
Thursday I would go to bed with him. My cheeks burned at the thought came to me and now, but lingering doubts. Not because I wanted to back down, but from Fear of failing miserably.
Compared to him I was so inexperienced! I could give him any, that it demanded him? I was not as nice as his former playmates, more exciting. Okay, no non Tracey I had ever seen, but if they were anywhere near like them, then I could not compare with them.
I was a normal, reasonably attractive, single mother and not a vamp. I would probably hire me as the last village idiot and scare him in the first five minutes.
These and similar thoughts in mind, I fell asleep and was finally out, but in the next Morning of my annoying alarm clock rudely awakened.
Danny was at school and I took care of me today at Lou's office work. He did, however, care that I can not access their accounts got what I found very worrying. Why he was just so secretive? It had disturbed him, but not otherwise!
After about two hours I spent with answering the mail and the sorting of storage - Lou was a total slob - Rose put her head inside the door.
"Hey Bells, there stands out a curious type and want to speak up!"
"Does this mean that the banishment is over and I may again Diner enter? "I asked, grinning.
"Only temporarily," she laughed.
It was, unfortunately, came just as I had feared. My cold persisted and I could not work in the service. Who wanted an operator to a spit in the plate of a tour?
I got up and went out of curiosity. Who wanted to talk to? Edward could indeed not be, since he was outside the city. Inside the restaurant
met me then the shock!
It was George!
He looked towards me embarrassed and deep shame came over me when I'm back because I him and his "mom" without Sitting in the restaurant was a word. No matter how bad I found him, I would at least have to say goodbye. But even this grace, I had not possessed.
"Hello George," I whispered, embarrassed in my turn, "I'm so very sorry for what I did to you. I can not make up for. I've never behaved so mean and have no excuse for my behavior impossible. "
" It's all right! "He said only," That I'm used to from childhood. I am already happened worse than sitting to be left. You had me so well before the assembled restaurant a scene can do and let me know first-hand how abysmally ugly and disgusting find me. This is what the latter does. Easy to cut, was almost human, "he said somewhat sadly.
My heart pulled together in front of his compassion and I felt terribly sorry. Not only that, he was punished with such an unattractive appearance, no, so, unfortunately, he also owned a mother who had him completely under her thumb.
"You know Bella," he continued, "I wanted to bring this first meeting behind me, so it's not so embarrassing, when we meet by chance. I do not blame you that you had escaped. What grown man does have his mother on a date, but my mom can sometimes be so dominant and they insisted form an opinion of you. "
" I can imagine that this not been exceptionally positive is, "said I only dry.
He smiled and nodded miserably with her head.
"I just wanted to say that I am not angry, and when Se need to talk to someone once, you can count on me."
emotion I looked at George. I had completely underestimated him and if his mother is not in Nearby was, he was even relatively normal.
"Thank you George, I really appreciate."
He nodded and then left without another word the restaurant.
Rose, who was standing behind me seemed taken aback somewhat.
"That was your date? Wow, no wonder you're cut off. But I thought it was just pretty brave of him that he has made to you. The do not all men. "
She looked after him thoughtfully.
"Oh by the way. I have spoken with Mr. Gibson. This is clear with last week. We go down there, you get your uniform and then We dive into the world of the rich and famous, "she cried dramatically, throwing his head in true Hollywood style to the rear. Unfortunately, the gesture lost its effect because her long blond hair is held by a hair net.
you had to push today kitchen duty, something I hated yourself because you took days to get rid of the smell of grease.
"This is great, Rose. I need the extra money well because I will be missing so the tips of today. "
" Then everything is Check. So now I will pursue my slave labor and torture again the burgers on the hot plate, they throw ketchup and salad leaves and thus a Attack on a poor, cholesterol-ridden guests commit. "
I had to laugh. Rose could be pretty funny and brought me with her statements to smile more than once.
The Wednesday night came quicker than I thought. My cold was over thanks to his God and I went with Rose in a great hall.
impressed I looked around and looked at the table with a sumptuous buffet. In a bubbling fountain, a golden yellow liquid.
It was champagne, as Rose told me, with my mouth open I looked at the funny bubbles. Something I previously knew only from movies and never thought that I sometimes see something live would.
entered by bit, the first guests in the room and we passed it around the appetizers. The women were all adorned with expensive jewelry, lifted their faces and necks and still they looked like butterflies in my everyday life. It was the way she behaved that attracted my attention. They all worked incredibly
confident, aware of their wealth and position, while I, like the extras stood by and watched.
Rose went to these people with much more routine. Probably because they are that concerned beauty and grace, did not need to hide from them and a natural self-confidence to put the day, which also did not escape the fine ladies of the society.
I felt like a bull in a china shop, glittering with so much grace. The clothes they wore, cost a fortune and I probably could have paid the money they had probably paid to loose ten months rent.
It was not that I begrudged them anything, but it hurt to know that I work so much I was wanted, but I would never be able to afford such nice clothes.
The men had their wives in elegance as anything, and I could not imagine Edward in this environment more than good. Another reason why I asked what he found me. I fit into it so very not in this picture.
Maybe he wanted to caviar sometimes normal fare, I'm full of self pity.
I thought immediately rejected. I did not help me make my own bad. Why should he not like me. I was nice, had a decent figure, and could bring out at least five grammatically correct sentences in a row. A skill that some women lacked clear here, if I mitbekam chunks of their conversations.
Again and again I handed round the canapés and think a very special pair caught my eye.
your beauty was breathtaking, even though they both already had the first bloom of their youth behind.
He was tall, well built and had silky blond hair that perfectly cut, the collar of his shirt touched. The facial features were classically beautiful, and came to me strangely familiar, but I could not quite place it.
The woman at his side was incredibly delicate, small and with caramelfarbenem blessed wavy hair that fell softly on her narrow shoulders.
His arm was around her small waist and they seemed incredibly in love with each other. They constantly touched, held hands and could barely keep their hands from the other.
I sighed. The two did not look like lovers, although they behaved in such a way to the intimacy between them was too strong. Something was not created overnight, but took years until it built up.
A man came to them and my breath stopped in his chest. I only saw him from behind, but it was obvious who it is.
The bronze-colored hair was like a personal mark of Edward and I wondered why he was here. Did he not come until tomorrow?
He turned slightly and I had a clear view of both men. Now I realized why it seemed to me the blond so well known. It had to be his father or uncle, for the similarity between them was amazing.
Edward grinned his crooked smile and let his eyes slide over the guests. He wound up at me and his smile froze instantly. He looked really shocked and confused, I took note of the blond as he whispered something in his ear.
He looked toward me and showed me with a look that we should meet outside.
What was going on now?
he was not happy to see me?
I put the tray down and crept to the door was gone, behind Edward.
It had to be a errand service act, which was no longer used, because it was poorly lit and I could easily see cobwebs.
"What are you doing here?" I heard his voice.
My eyes became accustomed to the dim light, and I was smiling at him. Although he has not announced when he was back there, I was glad to see him. I tore down all the barriers that separated me from him and ran to him.
Hungry I pressed my lips to his, kissed him with all the passion that had been accumulating in recent weeks. He hesitated and got involved in the game of our lips. I pushed him against the wall and ran his tongue over his pleading nor always closed mouth.
some point I raised my head, for he was clearly out to lunch.
"What's the matter?" Whispered disappointed me, "I had actually thought you looking forward to see you myself, but apparently is not the case."
"I am pleased to Bella, but I just do not expect you. What are you doing here? you spying after me? "he asked sharply.
more I hurt back.
"I did not even know that you're here. Rose has taken me, because I can here to earn something. I am not rich, if you forgot it and use every opportunity to make a Part-time job to take. "
I wanted to turn away from me and go again. It was humiliating to have assumed from him, I would spy on him afterwards. It probably was not such a good idea to give him. He already lost the interest now? The hunt was over, I was caught in his trap and now he could find the next victim. It seemed to me, anyway.
Nothing could feel more of his overwhelming passion for me. Even if we fought, it has always been there, but now he seemed strangely distant and nervous.
He grabbed me before I could open the door and whirled me around.
There it was again, his unbridled passion. They literally jumped me out to meet his eyes and the next moment I was kissed so hard that I stayed away for the air. Relieved, I put his fingers in his soft hair, opened his mouth to take in his tongue and gave myself to Him with heart and soul.
"Bella ....", He moaned softly into my mouth.
I could not answer, his kisses were too shocking and my knees felt like pudding. He picked me up, pressed me against the wall and pressed longingly at my body. I went with my lips over his clean-shaven cheek, took his taste in me, love him lots. My hands and tugged at his hair zurrten and I just could not get enough of his affectionate tongue dueled with mine.
He pulled away, breathing heavily again.
"Bella, you have to get out of here!" He ordered hoarsely.
Incredulous, I looked at him.
"How do you imagine that? I have to work and need the money. Also, I am here on a recommendation by Rose. It would fall on them when I go just like that and I really do not. "
" I will pay you the loss of earnings and that with your girlfriend, I check with Gibson, but you should not stay here now. I do not think we see someone while you are working here as a waitress. "
I pushed him away from me. Incredibly angry and insulted I threw him the next words to his head.
"Are not you ashamed of me? For the bed I'm good in thy good enough, but not to show up in public with me. I do not understand. It's not that I ask of you that you are staying all night next to me. I know that I do not fit in your circles, but you'd think you beforehand. "
He sighed impatiently.
"make a game out of it, no drama, Bella. But you must be clear, that it is not very befitting, here before my parents and friends messing around with my beloved. I'll explain everything. Tomorrow! But now it would be better you would. I can hardly keep their hands that is from you and that could really still embarrassing for me. There are a lot of business partners from me here and I can not afford not to have a clear head, "he flattered me.
Undecided I kneaded my hands and thought about his words. Of course he was not to be possible to me. We were not even together!
"Okay, I will go. But promise me that you are the klärst with Gibson. I will by no means, a rose for me trouble now. "
His relief was him formally to watch and I went with a bad feeling in your stomach back out after me a quick kiss on the mouth and pressed slipped out of me.
Outside I looked for Rose, I could see anywhere. I decided at once to get my jacket and her then to give notice. Although Edward I had just taken off yet the promise of the fastest way to leave the party, but I certainly would not go without telling her goodbye.
Edward Cullen could tell me anything and I left the company only because I wanted to spare myself the sight, like the women surrounding him buzzed. I did not doubt for one second in his ability to keep a cool head in my presence and gave this statement is an excuse. But I wanted to pluck a quarrel, and would confront him tomorrow.
He should not think that I would continue to give in so easily when it came to making our relationship. I did not demand that he married me, but I wanted to be not only his dirty little secret. I was too proud and the men had trampled on enough about me. I walked into the room
again, but kept me away, until I discovered Rose. I quickly ran up to her and told her the situation with a few words. Frowning, she looked at me
.
"Bella, I do not like. Why are you so sure he wants to get rid of? "She asked reasonably.
to this question I could give her no satisfactory answer, when suddenly his parents entered the stage and his father grabbed the microphone.
Edward went with it and kept his arm wrapped around a delicate girl.
"My dear friends, I would like first of all sincerely welcome. It's me and my wife Esme align a joy this party for you to be allowed. "
-absorbent I watched Edward. Why he did this young woman in the arm? Did he have a sister and where was Emmett? That I had not even seen.
My question is who was this woman, was answered by Mr. Cullen's next sentence, and my world and my confidence shattered into a thousand pieces.
"It is an honor to announce tonight the engagement of my son Edward with the lovely Jessica Stanley."
Rose firmly grabbed my arm as I staggered. Edward looked up randomly in my direction and noticed visibly shocked by my presence.
The woman threw her arms around his neck and kissed his lips tenderly. He kept his eyes focused on me the whole time until I could no longer bear it and desperate because I was lied to again, ran out.
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