tears I ran blindly out of the room, the sight, as he kissed the woman, still clearly in mind. Once again I had fallen for the false promises of a charmer and the humiliation was deep.
Not only did he practically under their noses rubbed me that I was not good enough to show with me in public, no, he lied to me even after rotten.
He wanted me weglotsen from there, so he is not with his latest toy spoiled. What a devious and calculating, he behaved.
I climbed hastily down the stairs of the wide, winding stairs when I heard footsteps behind me. His head over his shoulder to the back rotation, I checked to him that herlief a few feet behind me and when I saw Edward, I quickened my pace, while a painful stinging felt in the side made.
"Bella," he cried, "stop! We need to talk to each other, "he shouted loudly behind me.
"Go to hell," I shouted back, "I will not talk to you, Cullen. Tell your lies and your fiance is not me. "
I quickly turned the corner. I still had a small lead that melted rapidly, however, and saw a few feet in front of me a bus. I stumbled into it literally, threw the driver a few dollars on the shelf and sat down, breathless and heated from my sprint, on a window seat.
Edward watched as the bus pulled away before he could reach him. While he seems completely unfazed by our standing there and not even chase accelerated breathing, linked to each other our eyes.
I gave myself no effort to hide the pain that was raging inside of me. Why should they? It seemed to him anyway no matter what I felt, or he would not have lied so shamelessly.
Thus, a betrothal is not organized by one day to another, at least not on this scale. How long he had been unofficially engaged to be married? Since we knew, perhaps even before?
His figure was the growing distance getting smaller and smaller. Tears dripped on my hand back, as the houses, streets and people swam to an indistinct mass.
It hurt and the stinging feeling in my chest, which increased with each second, took me almost the air.
It was my heart, felt so hurt, but it is not broke. It is not fragmented into a thousand pieces, but beat steadily and persistently. A broken heart could be repaired and can kitten, but so I would remain in my pain and always remind me of my own stupidity.
drove As for me just to trust him? Not even he gave me a reason not to see him for what he was.
A scheming, ice-cold millionaire, threw himself out of sheer boredom on a new victim in order to pass the time. I
two stations continued to rise off the bus and earned a pitying look from the driver. The rest of the distance I covered on foot, while I totally numb and unfeeling ran through the dark night, trying to at least get home before I collapsed.
with heavy legs, I went up the stairs to my apartment. I was stuck like a robot the key into the keyhole and opened the door mechanically.
The jerky movements of my body, seemed not to belong to me and I began to undress. In the bathroom I took a cotton pad and then the remover cream evenly distributed on my pale face. As I removed the make-up, swelled again a few tears from my eyes and mingled with the cleaning substance.
placed naked in the shower and I turned the water so hot that my skin started to burn. I wish this pain, because it distracted me from the unbearable thought that I was hopelessly in love with Edward Cullen.
I did not love him! Only by his betrayal, I realized how deeply I already had him in my heart without even realizing it. Now that it was over, the realization hit like a tornado in my mind and left me destroyed and in ruins.
It was fortunate that Danny slept today Bibi, because I did not mean that he noticed something about my condition. For it had everything appear normal, even if his mother was desperate.
I got out of the shower and wrapped myself in my bathrobe. My eyes fell on the tub and the memory of what happened there, made me sob violently.
War I until now have been almost numb, so now all broke out of me. I pressed the back of the hand on my mouth to stifle my screams and tormented fell on the floor next to the bathtub.
Why he did this to me? Why they did this to me. Only now, Edward and Jake!
What is wrong with me that the men in my life so easy for me was hurting. Was I not lovable? I wallowed in my
Self-pity, but there was not any better, but I grew more and more into my self-loathing.
I was so stupid! So terrible and awful stupid!
He probably just amused with Jessica, his fiancee. She had been one of the women who owned the intelekt a toast to him and was grown from the head in any way. What he wanted was this child? Sure, I was not much older, but life made me mature early, while Jessica Stanley determined yet talked with her Barbies.
I dragged myself into the kitchen and poured me a glass of milk. Slowly I calmed me again, the tears were almost dried up and I sat at the kitchen table.
should do we go now? I doubted that he would just give up, he was too ambitious.
But now he could remove make the thing complete with the sex. I would not even touch him with a barge pole. This miserable, conceited, arrogant, scheming, silly, sensual, seductive ... ...
Okay, that was not good! Sighing, I put the glass to his lips and took a sip of the milk. It would not be easy to forget this man, he had me but in the few weeks in which we knew, deeply touched, as did Jake during our entire relationship.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!
The ringing at the door together let me drive. Oh God, if Edward was not, I would eat my hat. ! Bella
he shouted through the door and pounded his fist against it, "Open up, I know you're there,"
I held the pages in my bathrobe and ran barefoot to the door. I leaned my forehead against it and tried my raging breath to bring under control.
"What do you want?" I called him by protecting the door.
"I want to talk to you! Let me in or I'll scream along the whole staircase ", he threatened.
Trembling, I opened the door because I did not want to risk that mitbekamen Bibi and Danny what his presence.
He was tall and beautiful in the doorway and pushed me deeper into the apartment.
"Finally, I thought I would stay outside the door."
"I'm sure your fiancee has a more comfortable night's lodging for you," I teased viciously.
That he dared to appear here after he'd been so lied to, was the height of insolence and yet my poor little heart was pounding with excitement at the sight. If he only ... ..
But he would never love me, he was not even able to, I talked myself into belief. It was a once and for all over and no excuse in the world, would rehabilitate him.
"Say what you have to say and then get the fastest route from my home." He grinned mockingly
and strolled through my kitchen without a hurry. His tall figure seemed completely out of place in my simple kitchen, and his mouth twisted with disdain, as he saw the loose cables, which stood back from the wall. The landlord promised have been Weeks of the cable to be connected again, but until now there is nothing doing. "You shall have to fix this, or you'll torch you some time from your shop"
, he further quipped, "Not that it would be a shame drum!"
That hurt!
I was so proud of my home that I had created me and Danny. It was easy to speak disparagingly, if you had as much money as he does.
"That was mean," I whispered honestly, "it is my home, the only one I have and you have no right to judge it. I do my best, but I can now sometimes can not provide chic penthouse apartment. "
the first time since I knew him, he looked like he was ashamed.
"I'm sorry, I should not have said" he admitted.
"What do you want from me?" I repeated.
"Is not that obvious?" He replied in astonishment, "Come on, Bella, will you not let a little thing like of such an engagement diverted from our night together? It really means nothing. It's a business story! Our company and merge with a marriage, I assure me their shares in the company of her father. "
He stepped closer, his scent enveloped me, yet again, but this time I would remain adamant. Before he left the apartment, he would get his own medicine taste and this was bitter.
He raised his hand and stroked me seductively, her neck, down to the neck of my robe. He waited briefly and grinned when he realized that I was no resistance.
I watched him closely, the anticipation saw in his eyes as he slowly slid his hand under the worn and threadbare fabric.
course it excited me, that already proved my hard erect nipples, but I was completely under control. Again and again I called in my memory, as this kissed Jessica in front of the guests. I closed my eyes to let my anger not see him immediately and he thought I would do it out of the excitement.
"I knew you're reasonable," he whispered and slowly kneaded the solid hemisphere, which was in his large hand, "I will make sure that you scream with pleasure. Why should such a trifle, as deter us from an engagement to have an affair. I want you, you want me. "
" What about Jessica? "I asked with barely suppressed anger.
The girl might be straw-silly, but I felt sorry yet. It had to cruel wanted to be, to be punished with such a creep, who cheated before the wedding with a different, cheating, no.
He nibbled on my neck now and his hand worked doggedly on to my bosom. Calculated I turned back to his neck and moaned softly, which was not even played, but annoying in the first place. I did not want to leave him cause I wanted to finish it, let him just run up, as me.
"Jessica will be a docile wife and disturb us no more, dear."
With every word he pulled a piece of the fabric to the side and kissed my tender shoulders. His mouth slid open about my skin, licking it and brought me to me to drill the nail firmly into the palm, so that the pain kept me in their right mind. I played with fire, but he would be the one who burned his fingers out.
"Does that mean you'll tell her about us?" I asked him naively played and played with the buttons of his silk shirt.
same time, I gave him an innocent look under half-closed eyelashes, which made him laugh in amusement.
"Love what you have for ideas. She is tolerant, but not soooo much that they would tolerate a permanent mistress by his side. "
"Does that mean you'll sleep with her?"
bastard, I thought you fucking bastard!
"This will unfortunately not be avoided, dear. But they will start at some point, with her tennis and golf teacher and I have to take my rest. I will not neglect you but, I promise you. "
He placed me on the table and opened my robe. He hissed excitedly when he saw that I was wearing only a panty underneath.
"You are so beautiful," he groaned and fell on my body.
His mouth was everywhere, on my breasts, my neck, put exploring on my flat belly gone. His wet kisses made me almost forget my plan, but as always I saved his loose tongue.
"You know," he whispered, and pushed his fingers under the waistband of my panties and pressed my body on the table, "I knew from the beginning that you would be mine someday. However, that it goes so fast, so I did not expect. "
Oh Edward, I thought if you knew how often I had already slept with you, if you had only held the door in time.
"Tell me what you all want to do with me," I whispered seductively, "I want to hear from you."
"I'll kiss you anywhere, baby. Every millimeter of you will indulge me. "
He took off his jacket and opened it with nervous movements shirt. It slipped from his shoulder and his muscles moved beneath the silky skin. His upper body was a dream. Marble skin, which would have had any other illness made him look like a statue. Perfect down to the last muscle!
He leaned back to me and my hands on his chest.
"Touch me, Bella! I want to be petted by you, feel your hands on me. "
I ran about his soft skin.
"Is this a good thing?"
He groaned.
"Damn, you're incredible, the most exciting woman I have ever met."
"You know, what can you do now?" I asked tenderly kissed his skin, leaving lips smooth glide over them.
He closed his eyes and laughed and shook his head. God, he was so sure that he had fulfilled his wishes. I pushed him away
, pulled the robe back, knotted him with firm, controlled movements and saw him with ice cold to the eye.
"You may now your stuff re-tighten, go to your fiance and do all these things with her. I do not sleep with men assigned. Remember well the last few minutes, Edward, because that's the only thing you'll ever get from me. "
Stunned, he looked at me and grabbed his shirt.
"You have fooled me, you bitch!"
"Well, Cullen! What goes around, comes around. "
Now I was really aggressive and took two steps forward in order to look him in the eye when I talked to him.
"Have you really thought," my voice cracked, almost, "you could just show up for this thing here and everything you need to do is take off your shirt and good it is. Are you really so naive, or has robbed you of the worship of all those hollow women, the last remnant of mind with the love of God has graciously provided. "
I took a deep breath and continued.
"You'll never get me, Edward. I do not sleep with hypocrites and you are by far the most glaring example of this species. I've never seen so much berechnendes calculus with a man as with you. But do you one to say! Will you come again in my presence, you'll regret it, Cullen. Have you received this in your pea brain? "
He calmly buttoned the last button of his shirt and pulled his expensive suit jacket back on.
"Well, Bella! You won. How much are you asking? "
Surprised, I looked at him. He said about ... ...? No, it could not be! Edward was not even as extreme, or is it? I had to reassure myself.
"How much what?", I hooked to care.
"How much money do you want? That is the reason for your theater. You want to drive your price up, why else would you mention all the time that you have no money and sooo have to work hard. So tell me just how much will you have and I will immediately put a check. "
Now it was my turn to be stunned. He wanted me to PAY!
Was he now has finally snapped? He treated me like a loose woman and accused me of pure greed. My last glimmer of hope that he was possibly still a little bit of decency in himself, went straight flutes. This guy would never change, and certainly not for me.
"I want you to go!"
He looked at me in disbelief.
"What is this? You have not yet named your price. I'll pay you what you want, you have to give me just a sum. If $ 250,000 enough? If not, I still sit on top of an apartment. Anyway you need a reasonable accommodation if you are my beloved. "
Disappointed, I looked at him.
"Just go, Edward." I said suddenly become infinitely tired, "I do not want your money, I never wanted. If you had been honest from the start, maybe I would have eventually succumbed despite fiance, because it would be hypocritical of me to say that I feel nothing for you. But you can not trust you and that makes a connection between us impossible. Jessica is just another reason to keep away from you. Your money can not tempt me, even when I desperately needed would have. I would give myself to you with all my heart if I should believe that you feel something for me. But you are like marble. Cold and spotless. I do not want someone like that, I deserve something better. You can not buy love, Edward! It must be given to you. "
I closed my monologue, proud of myself because I had the courage to be honest. Admitting that I felt something for him was risky, but I wanted to finish this thing with his head.
"What do you mean," said he only left my apartment and smooth steps.
The only thing that comforted me to some extent, was that he was because of me Jessica, sitting on his own engagement party was.
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