" May I introduce? This is my son, Daniel, "I sent you over to Edward, absolutely shocked, by turns, the view from Danny and then left me to wander. Even bystanders had noticed the similarity between me and Daniel. This same brown, slightly curly hair, pale skin and big brown eyes. My son was my own image and had nothing of Jake, either visually and what was important, and character is not. He looked at me and stared curiously at Edward. He was shy towards men always something that he really had only female caregivers. But recently, he was more confident and was not so anxious when he met new people.
"Danny, this is my new boss Edward Cullen! Say hello to him, "I asked him gently.
Danny hopped on my hip went to Edward and stretched out his hand.
"Hello Mr. Cullen," he said, like and put his head back in order to look at him.
Edward stared at him as if he were a little green man. He tilted his head and studied him closely as he would have never met a child. Well, he probably did not have much with children in his hat, and I wondered whether it was the now, with his advances. He would not be the first man, who was put off by a child. It would be best for all concerned.
"You're a child," he said in a strange voice.
Danny turned to me easily, irritated with facial expression, before he again turned to Edward.
"They are pretty slanted, Mister," he surmised, and I was left in shock off the air.
"Danny!" I exclaimed, "Something like you can not say yet. Excuse me ask you, "I commanded. He was not usually so rude, but since he was on this pre-school, even my lovely son a few things were on the lips, for I had my dad used to wash the mouth out with soap. Mostly he did not even know what he was saying, but he snatched it up somewhere and put his new knowledge to the people. It was not so easy to explain to him what was right or wrong.
"Excuse me, Mr. Cullen," he whispered softly.
Edward went to his knees and looked hard at him.
"Never Apologize for your opinion, boy! It is always better to say what one thinks, "he said.
Edward stood up and gave me a long look before it in the office without another word disappeared. I saw him afterwards and did not know what to make of it. Bibi cleared his throat loudly and I was promptly returned to reality.
"Bella, if I had known that he is here, I would not come here that you have to believe me."
is "all right, Bibi. He would have noticed at least browse through the personnel files. He is such a loose bird very thorough about its business. The miss absolutely nothing. "
" Can you stay a few minutes, "she said," Danny has been so happy to see you again at last and he is already asleep when you come home. "
" I have half an hour, "I replied and took Danny's hand," So, you little rascal, now Tell me how it was. "
He was all smiles and began to babble as detached. We sat at a corner table, Danny eats my chips, while I even ate my burger with a moderate appetite. I smiled and looked at him as he told of vim total of his experiences in the camp. Edward did not appear again and my first fear he could do immediately approached me about Danny, scattered a little. He would certainly favor the use of the hour and the first important minutes of getting to know each taken advantage of, especially since he even defended against me when I saw him for his insolent behavior forced to apologize.
Time went by far too fast and I had to go back to his office. I had a little jitters in front of him now connect back under the eyes. Although I had no harm done wrong, but him to conceal the existence of my son, but it was funny to him now to face as a mother. Would he now be different? I had absolutely no idea how he would act now, as I knew him far too little to judge him properly. It probably did not care and he would happily continue where he left off and I just adjust stubborn as before.
"yes you can stay and eat at an end, I am sorry again to the office."
Bibi looked at me astonished.
"To the office?" She inquired, "I thought you work in the service. "
" He wants me to go through with it, the numbers and explain to him the processes here. He bought the store and has to find her pussy. Lou has recommended him to take care of me because I have used him earlier in the accounts under his arms. "
" Well, well! He bought the diner, then! "She said more to himself and I noticed how the cogs in her brain turned back.
"Bibi," I said warningly, "you picture now has a no weaknesses, which generally means nothing. It's just a business matter. "
She looked at me, when I was out of his comfort.
"Bella, this man is worth millions, has interests in companies that are scattered all over the world. Even if the line was so far only by his father and he has only recently taken over the business, he is far too rich and powerful to put the interest and time in a tiny fast-food restaurant. Do you honestly him it was all about profit to beat this store. His apartment has probably cost more than five dinner together. Wake up, Bella. He does so only for one reason and you know exactly. "
listen to the so grossly out of her mouth was sobering. It was just "did not in my head, that such a man as Cullen, just as much time and money mustered in order to get me into bed. He must have really terrible boredom, if he so put it to the wheel. He did not love me, was not together with me, but he turned ownership over to me. No other but he was allowed to come near me. He reacted annoyed to George, he was not serious and the phone call from Danny, he was terribly jealous at the thought that I could have contact with other men. Therefore, he responded with the remarkable record of Danny, because he realized that he was wrong and it is a child, which I assured my dear.
"You seem be informed so pretty good about him, "I said a little piqued, but I was not angry with her," How do you know all this? "She grinned mischievously
.
"I've googled," she said with unmistakable pride in his voice.
I had to smile. Bibi was most recently owner of a laptop and an Internet connection, which they use with increasing enthusiasm.
"You're impossible!" I smiled and then leaned down to Danny, "Be kind to Bibi, my darling. I come so fast it home and tell you good night. "
" Can I stay up until you come? I have yet no school tomorrow, "he begged.
"exceptional, because I missed you too terribly. I have to work again, unfortunately, but we see very quickly. "
" Do you have a new job, Mum? You do not wear your dress funny. "
" I will wear the ridiculous "dress" again soon. Today is a day of exceptions, "I explained to him and he grinned at me. I quickly wiped it still marks the ketchup from his face, slowly walked up to his ears and went back into the private rooms. I went to the bathroom to check on the seat of my hair and because I reject the course to Edward, wanted to delay something. I looked very pale, which was certainly on my remaining cat. The node for looped hair was perfect, not a strand of stray from this, and emphasized my completely unadorned face. Only a slight blush on the cheeks gave my face a little color, so it seemed like something alive. Finally, I could not wait any longer without having to worry that he made his way to find me. Before the office, I took another deep breath and entered.
He stood at the window and stared motionless on the street. Not a word escaped his lips, he did not turn around and had nothing to tell if he was my Commitment had even noticed. Quietly, I sat down in my chair and waited.
"Why did not you tell me?" He asked emotionless.
"Why should I have done it?" I shot back immediately, "I would have given you so but just another weapon in the hands, you could use. I have to protect my child because he has to do with the matter. "
He turned at last, a bitter train around the mouth.
"Do you think of me? I could use a child for to get at the mother? "
He laughed, but it was not a nice laugh. It sound harsh, cold and cheerless.
"I'm really surprised at what a" did great "you think about me. One thing can you feel confident. I will not replace your precious little son too close. Something I did not need, love. "
" I do not know you, Edward! How should I know what you are capable. Frankly, I do not what to think. "
" Is it so hard to understand that I want you more than anything else! ", it broke with rage out of it. With two quick steps, he was with me, grabbed my shoulders and pulled me up from the chair. He was so close, its smell flowed tremble in my nose and left me with delight. Violently he pressed me against him, while still holding on to my shoulders and bent over me. He trembled ...
"I want you," he repeated, "You are the first thing I think when I wake up I dream of you at night and sleep with the idea of you. I constantly have to think your taste, the softness of your skin, and how hugs your hot, little body against mine. You are stormed into my life as a force of nature that can not control me and that makes me ready. I swear to you Bella, if you give in soon, I'll still explode. Why do you do it ourselves so hard that we could touch the sky together. "
With every word he hit my heart. How much I wished to be able to give in, but I had already gone too far. This man was so obsessed to have me, that he deceived even his fiancee Jessica of his desire would. Jessica ... Another point that made it impossible for me to give me at last. I was ashamed that I had kissed him after I knew of her. She deserved no such thing, no matter how stupid they also seemed to be. He was not mine, but if he wanted me to decide he had to.
"Edward ..." I breathed, and was go on, but my words were choked by his mouth, lay softly and lovingly to my lips. He held me so tightly to his body pressed, that I could not move. What a convenient excuse that I was not defended myself. In my defense, I was able to produce only that I was completely still and not his affection replied. Nevertheless, I enjoyed his kiss. It was so bittersweet, because he gave me the first time, revealed something of his feelings. It was not just my body he wanted, even though that was probably the main reason for it. But my refusal to give myself, forced him to deal with me and he noticed the people was stuck in me.
"Bella," he whispered between his kisses, "Bella, you ... you .... You. ... There is only you," he ejaculated troubled, took rough my mouth, pressed fiercely with his tongue and tasted me. Fahrig his hand stroked my upper body as if to touch as much as possible from me. Wicker Park, I enjoyed it, it could deny me any more, because his words something deep inside me to sound more appropriate. Maybe there was still a chance for us, he would have to break away only for Jessica, because before that I would never be able to feel happiness when I gave myself to him. It was the only option. I pulled my head back and tried to keep it. His eyes showed me something different than usual, because he had torn down all the walls and I gained confidence and courage.
"Edward, we can not do that as long as you're engaged. This is not right and I want to hurt anyone. What we hold here, and madness must end. Separating you from Jessica or her stay faithful, for I will not sleep with an engaged man. "
He breathed frantically, his chest rose and fell at a rate of knots as he pressed me against the desk.
"Do you think I care about is what Jessica thinks or feels. It's a business matter and she knows it. There is no love between us and there never will. Both of us, this is something completely different. I do not want just one night, Bella, but for longer. I'll treat you well and will want for nothing. I now understand why you work so much and you have my respect for it, but it would not be wonderful if you had more time for your boy. You'd have to work ever again, because I would feed you well. We enjoy our passion, until they faded again and go our separate ways. "
He broke my heart with his words. He wanted more than a brief affair, but he still spoke of a limited period, of passion and of love, as I imagine a life without him even imagine not been able, even if it was not the extreme. As much as he'd already collected and beguiles. That he does not love Jessica, I was almost clear, but what drove him only to marry her?
"Will you lose your company if you do not get married?" I asked when I could think of no other reason than financial difficulties that would suddenly find a reason marriage to an end. That made it not better, but it would at least be a plausible explanation.
"I will lose nothing," he said evenly, "My company will become even stronger and bigger and such an opportunity, I may not be missed."
"And if I ask you to do it," I said softly, looking at him intently.
"Then I would not do it anyway. I separate business and personal life. "
" Does this mean I am private, and Jessica is business? "
He grinned seductively.
"That's what it means," he whispered and kissed me on the neck, "Bella, dear, we could be happy together. I can not publicly stand by you, but I would be as often as possible with you. "
Every word was accompanied by sweet kisses on my neck, my face and quivering lips.
"God, I love that you are not so clogged up. You need it all and I'm not crazy about it, to kiss you without barriers. You taste incredible. "
hot slipped his lips over my skin, his hands felt carefully over my body. He seemed so honest and I plucked up my courage and asked him the ultimate question.
"Are you in love with me, Edward?"
intruder I looked into his eyes and I winced when his answer came quickly and without hesitation.
"No," he said firmly, "I want you more than you can imagine, I think of any others, but do not hold your breath about my feelings to you. I'm not in love with you."
shocked I laughed because I would otherwise have been crying.
"At least you're honest!" I brought out in a trembling voice.
put his hand on my cheek rested, warm on the heated skin.
"I did not hurt you, Bella. But I can not lie to get what I want. I once loved and had they lost. No one can take its place. "
This opening had all the hopes burst like a soap bubble. The pain burrowed into my soul and enriches itself. Now only not break out in tears, Bella. I did not hear it, would not hear of it, that he had loved a woman and gave her his heart. But my curiosity won out of hand and I could not help me one last question.
"Who was she?"
His eyes softened as he thought of the others and this look on his face pained me endlessly. But I was masochistic enough to entgegenzufiebern his response to see who was the woman that this man was so dirty that it no longer had in his heart.
"Her name was Tanya," he said in a loving voice, "and it was the purest angel, the most beautiful creature I ever saw."
still have a knife in my heart, but I wanted to necessarily so .
"We were very young when we fell in love and decided to get married early. Everything was perfect and the wedding preparations in full swing. A month before our big day, she decided to fly even to her father in China to visit him. He had emigrated there, and had founded a new family. Tanya was very angry with him because they had the feeling of having lost him two years and they said never a word. But she did not celebrate until they are not reconciled with him and decided to do this personally. "
His eyes darkened with pain. Apparently, he still could not think back, without being overcome with deep grief.
"The plane with which she was traveling crashed, and they were all killed. I have never forgiven me that I have not discouraged them. I would have to be persistent. I lost the dearest thing I had and I'll never feel again something similar for a woman. Tanya was unique, " he concluded with conviction.
I broke from his embrace, internally completely solidified. How could I compete with a dead woman, whom he revered as a saint. I could compete against Jessica, from a couple of company stock also, but not against his deceased love. It was still fresh when she died, no disputes clouded the relationship, during which our only seemed to consist of such. He remembered the perfect unit, with no cracks, no conflicts have been fought. You never shared together everyday, at least not that he was also one of the quirks of the partner. Only in this way turned out but if you really fit together and that he had never experienced. He only thought back to his angel, and he was taken much too soon. A tear rolled and broke up on my cheek.
"Do not cry, Bella. I wanted to hurt you, but that's just the truth. I just can not as deeply involved with a woman, I'd feel to cheat them. But if I could ever love again, then you were there. "
I wiped away my tears and looked hard at him. I was pleased with his honesty, because that he had given me makes my decision.
"I'm grateful that you were so honest and you deserve an honest answer from me," I started trembling Agree on, "I've fallen in love with you, Edward. I admit it, it is so. But I can not be with you with the knowledge that you are always in my thoughts will be with another woman. That you will always see you inside the kisses of others and to their embrace. I will not be the second choice, that is, actually, I would be the third, as Jessica would still ahead of me. Can you not imagine how it would be cruel and painful for me to be just your dirty little secret. Constantly having to live in the shadow without the ability to show you my love. It would destroy me some day. If you do the slightest thing for me feel, then I beg you to leave me alone. At some point I'll get over you and maybe find someone who does not hide made me need someone who is proud to have me at his side. "
He
some distance between us and looked at me thoughtfully. He did not seem very affected by my confession of love, he knew well in advance.
"I can understand you, Bella. I'm sorry that you fell in love, although it is flattering to me. You gotta also believe that you mean to me quite a bit! But I will respect your wishes and not bother you in future. Although it will be terribly difficult to me. "
Regretfully, he looked at me and left me desperate and alone.
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